Can't sleep

I am sat in my office at the moment, in the Villa, in Luxor, at 3 AM in the morning. It is one of those mornings where I have awoken spontaneously and feel wide-awake. It seems a perfect opportunity to add another chapter to the blog.

We have been in Luxor for one week, and I have certainly felt the benefit of being in the sunshine. It has re-energise my aura and I feel a lot stronger by far. We are still battling with the medication problem. Although we are trying our best to cut out morphine from the regime of drugs that I am taking, all of the drugs are opiate-based and so have a link in to this energy. One of the sets of tablets that I am taking is called Pregabelin, which is initially given to people who are suffering from epileptic fits. However, one of the other qualities of this drug is that it is very good at combating nerve pain, and so it has been prescribed for me in this capacity. I am still experiencing bouts of nerve pain that arise every 2 to 3 days. They are extremely painful when they are here, and the general consensus of thought was to take the tablets to try to offset the occurrences of this very disabling pattern. To some extent this has been successful. Unfortunately, as with all medicated drugs, there is a price to pay. The particular side effects of this drug are depression and disassociation of reality. As you will see when we start to talk about how to overcome cancer, having to tackle the energy of depression is not a good thing. In order to beat cancer one has to be upbeat and cultivate a space of positive attitude. This is very hard to do when the tablets you aren't taking causes feelings of depression to arise spontaneously and continuously.

Christine and I are now putting the final touches to a trip that we will be organising to take a small group of people (around 20) around the Temples of Egypt via a Five-Star Nile cruise at the time of the Wesak Full Moon. We are hoping that people will feel attracted to doing this trip with us, mainly because Christine and I have spent the last three years living here and we have a particular feel for the area and the people, and we are also aware of the esoteric facts behind most of the temples which we will be able to share with the group. Having been to the temples many times, Christine and I know where all of the best sites are and can lead our group directly to them. Most of these places within the temples are very rarely seen by tourists because the government guides are not trained to take people into the spaces or to explain the enigmas that they contain. We have put together a comprehensive trip that touches on all of the major temple sites in Egypt, and of course some time down in Cairo where we have booked some private time in the Great Pyramid itself. Again, because we have booked the Great Pyramid we will have access to all of the site and can therefore visit the Queen's chamber and the subterranean chamber where initiations took place. It is these areas that tourists are not allowed to see normally. There should also be enough time for each member of the group to lie in the sarcophagus in which initiations took place by all of the major spiritual teachers throughout known history. We believe that we are creating a truly magical journey and the details of this will be on our website within the next four weeks.

Christine and I are using all of our experience to try to overcome the bouts of pain that seem to come in every 2 to 3 days. We are in touch with a homoeopathic friend of Christine's in England and have enlisted the help also. As always, if you work the problem the answer will come and we are hoping that the answer will come of this particular problem soon. We start the seven-day Merkabah on Sunday with a small group here in Luxor. I have not decided whether I will take part in this or not, because at the moment it is pretty sure that I will not be able to fit in for the full-time due to these disabling occurrences which we are trying to find the answer to. I would not want to disrupt the group too much. There is still nearly a week ago and the all sorts of things can happen in such a short space of time. We shall see.

Hospice Again

Sorry if you have already received this blog through the e-mail group by mistake. I sent it from Heathrow whilst under the influence of the deadly morphine and put it on the wrong site.

And so it I myself once again in the hospice.
Having had to leave the cottage because of a prior booking taken before Christine and I decided to stay in England, we now find ourselves in a bed and breakfast, one bedroomed room at the farm of the lady that owns the cottage. Christine returned to Egypt the day after we moved in, but I found it increasingly difficult to look after myself in the small space. I had two attacks of the pain whilst I was there, and had to ring the emergency doctor in the middle of the night in order to cope with the intensity of the pain. For the first time they gave me something called Diamorphine Hydrochloride, which for all of you is better known as heroin. I have to say that this chemical decimated me much more than any other chemical I have ever taken in my life. It turned me from an intelligent, witty, expansive thinking person into a drooling fool.

The plus side of taking this exceedingly strong chemical was that it got rid of the pain within 15 minutes. But as I have said, the after affects are devastating, and they can last up to 24 hours after the initial dose. It became apparent, therefore, that I could not look after myself in the small space and so I contacted the hospice in the hope that I could come and stay with them for a period until I got used to the medication. So this is what happened.

I have now been in the hospice for over a week, and had to cancel my flight to Egypt which I had pre-booked and which caused me great sorrow at the time. Whilst I have been here I have been experiencing these run-ins with the pain every 2 to 3 days. I have made a decision though that I am not going to take the Diamorphine anymore. This is because I would rather be in pain than a dribbling idiot sat in a chair totally disconnected from this reality drooling onto my clothes and making a profound mess. I have decided to just take the normal oral morphine which can take up to 5 hours to bring the pain under control, but better this, then being out of touch for 24 hours.
I have rebooked my flight to Egypt and I go tomorrow from Heathrow. I am trusting that this trip will be uneventful and that I will be able to manage the transfers from Manchester to Heathrow successfully and that I will not have to deal with any bouts of pain. Christine and I have cast this intention into spirit and we are sure it's going to work.

Christine started a brand-new Seven-Day Angelic Reiki in Luxor today. I hope to join this workshop on Tuesday morning and run with it for the rest of the week, spending as much time as possible with the group. If I can manage to do this, it will be the first time I have taught in over 14 months. To say that I am looking forward to getting back into the energy would be an understatement. I have really made plans that this year is Kevin's big comeback.
Whilst I am in Luxor I will detail through my diary a number of workshops that I am hoping to run here in England throughout this year. I intend to keep busy and so the schedule will be full. Two of the workshop that I will be teaching will be the Angelic Reiki update with all of the information about how to beat cancer. There may be another workshop over three days dedicated to the method that we have come up with to successfully overcome cancer. On top of this I am using the energies of manifestation to create the most perfect future for myself. Since immersing myself in this energy I have now the best feel I have ever had about how to manifest and I am hoping to weave this into the previous workshop that we taught which was the Seven-Day Angelic Reiki manifestation workshop. It will be taught in a totally different way with not so much emphasis on Deepak Chopra's seven laws. I feel and I am excited that this workshop will be exceedingly powerful and will, for those people who attend, totally change their lives from that moment onwards. It is this workshop that spirit wishes me to teach more than any other. I am also communicating with spirit in a much deeper and profound way and I will pass this way onto you in any workshop that you attend. It is direct communication with the godhead itself. But don't get worried about it being too profound, it is exactly the opposite of this which if you think about it would always be so.

I am hoping to post this blog when I have a bit of time down at Heathrow tomorrow and so we should all be up to scratch in the next few days. Whilst I am in Luxor I intend to keep up to this blog, and to also look at video blogging. I am also going to start to put some videos up on YouTube. These will be the kind of questions that I am always asked in workshops. The obvious ones will be, “What is the difference between Angelic Reiki and the other Reiki systems?” I am hoping they will become a focus of interest and draw many more people into our sphere of operations for both Christian and myself and all other teachers out there. If any of you have any suggestions of any video clips lasting no longer than 10 minutes that you would like me to tackle, then please send your suggestions to me at yophielangel@btconnect.com.
Once again, I thank all of the people who have been sending me e-mails, but as you have seen from above I have not been in the space to answer them. At some point in the future I really will get down to the task of connecting to you all again. So please take this communication as a way of saying thank you to you all from the bottom of my heart.
All of my love.
Kevin.

The Gift

Many of you have heard me talking in workshops about how the energy of healing can slow down the progression of cancer, even to the point of halting it completely. Although I gave many examples of this, my favourite was the story of the lady that I found sat on the steps of the clinic that I worked in. She was crying her eyes out, and when I asked her what was wrong, she told me that she had lung cancer and the doctors had just told her she only had three or four weeks to live. I took her into the clinic and immediately did one healing session on her. This created a relationship between us that lasted for nine months. During this time I did a healing session with her every week for those nine months.
The reason why she had been crying was that she was absolutely terrified of dying. During the nine months that I treated her, we talked often about what would happen when she died, where she would go, and what she would experience. Through talking this subject through over the nine months her fear of dying was alleviated.
After I had been treating her for nine months she suddenly decided to ask me to come once every two weeks, and then soon after this once every month. As soon as we started to space out the healing more, the cancer in her lungs activated once again she died in her sleep a month later. She had decided it was time to go and that was ok.

This is typical of the service that doing healing for people with cancer can be. It is my understanding and reality that healing will slow cancer down if not stopping it completely, and gives the person time to assimilate the situation in which they find themselves. As a healer, I often contemplated what it would be like to have cancer, but I never thought for a moment that I would receive the same kind of gift myself if I contracted cancer. This has been the case however.

For those of you who have read the death and dying article, you will know that as you take your last breath there is a process that we all go through where we let go of the various bodies that we have used to manifest on the third dimensional plane. These consist of the physical/etheric, the emotional body, and the mental body. One has to let go of each of these bodies before one finds oneself in the radiant light of your soul.

Over the last three months I have been aware that the two years that have passed since the original operation to remove the cancerous tumour in my mouth, has been spent grieving the loss of Kevin Core. It is said that if someone loses a loved one through death it takes two years of processing before one can finally let go of that person. As a councillor who helped people grieve their lost relatives, I can vouch for the fact that this two-year period is roughly correct. What I have found, however, is that over the two years that have passed since the original operation, I have been grieving everything that is Kevin Core
How is this a service? At the time of writing this blog I can honestly say that I have brought into balance every aspect of my life as this personality. It is through the constant looking back at my life over the last two years, of working through the emotional attachments, of the mental anxieties that have sprung up periodically in my life, that I can honestly say I have brought all of these into balance. If it was that I took my last breath tomorrow, I would not have to do all of this processing on the emotional and mental plane, having done the work here, I would very speedily drop the emotional and mental body's and find myself in that wonderful place of my own soul and the Masters.
So this is the service that the healing has done for me. It has held this cancer in abeyance for the last two years so that I have been able to do all the work on myself, on my personality, to bring it all into balance so that I can honestly say in this moment I am totally at peace with myself. Such is the gift of healing.

Health Update

At this moment in time, Christine and I feel that we are at a turning point with Deep River. As detailed in the last blog, I have now completely finished taking morphine but it has taken over 10 days to clear it out of my system. It has been amazing how it has undermined my perception of self, and caused me to drift into a space of accepting the inevitable, which is being conquered by this illness. As the morphine cleared out of my system, so my resolve returned.

At the moment, I am taking a medication called Tramaset, which is a combination of a mild opiate and Paracetamol. I am also taking another medication called Pregabalin, which is used to treat people with epilepsy, but has the quality of reducing nerve pain.
Since writing the last blog I have been completely free of all pain as long as I take these two medications. This is a massive shift in my condition, because only two weeks ago, I was suffering from the most amazingly intense pain on a daily basis.

One of the major contributing factors to my speedy recovery is the fact that I have been consulting a homoeopath as part of the treatment for Deep River. I am absolutely sure that the cessation of the pain has been due entirely to the homoeopathic remedies that I have been prescribed. One of the results of these remedies is that a hole opened up spontaneously in the left-hand side of my neck. If you look at the photograph in this blog you will see the large lump that has formed there. Although the doctors have taken biopsies from this lump and stated it is cancer, I do not believe this to be true. I believe that the original operation two years ago caused the blockage in the lymph system in my neck. This lump is the result of the blockage. With the opening of the hole in my neck, and the constant draining over the last 10 days of excess lymph fluid, I have seen a cessation of the intense pain that I have been experiencing.

It is Christine and my intention that the whole of this journey will be to create a system of healing which will clear cancer on any level. We intend to teach it as part of a two-day course later this year, and also to integrate it into the Seven-Day Angelic Reiki Workshops that we will teach throughout the world this year. It will also be a major part of the Angelic Reiki update that we will be holding in England, also later this year.
As part of the treatment for cancer, we strongly recommend that a classical homoeopath be consulted to support the healing. This is the course that I have walked over the last two months, and I feel that the effect of the homoeopathic remedies is solely contributory to the disappearance of the pain.

We also strongly recommend that anybody who wishes to follow the line of treatment that we indicate, should also seek out an Angelic Reiki Healer, preferably at Master Level, to do a healing at least once a week. Obviously, Christine and I can avail us of this energy at any time, and I cannot stress too strongly how much it supports the healing in this illness.

To give an indication of how the healing can help, on a bad day, which is what I have had today, one of the side effects of having this illness is extreme tiredness and exhaustion. In the course of today I have only been awake for five hours since midnight last night, it now being 8 PM at the time of writing this blog. It has taken me all of my time to move from one place to another without feeling extremely exhausted
Another side-effect, which I have mentioned before, is a shortness of breath. I find this one particularly distressing; as you can feel that you are choking and suffocating at the same time. Although we have the tools to overcome this illness, one can get so immersed in it as we cannot see what needs to be done in any one moment. So it was today. I have been feeling so ill today that I could not focus on what I needed to help me clear this intense tiredness. It was only at Christine's insistence; at 4 PM this afternoon that she felt we should do a healing. This is what we did, for about 15 minutes. I cannot explain how powerfully the energy came in to clear this tiredness. Christine felt that the energy came from master level and energise both of us to an extreme degree. Since the healing, I am now completely energised and raring to go, and ready to tackle anything. We sometimes forget what an amazing gift we have been given.

Christine returns to Luxor on 25 January, and I follow one week later. We feel that this will cause a big shift in the energy around us; that having lived in this cottage for the last six months has been a burning ground for me; a Dark Night of the Soul, where I have died, and been reborn. Once I get in to the sunshine of Luxor, and get energised by it, I feel that my healing will take on new meaning, and I am hopeful that I will start to teach workshops this year. I will reiterate again that this illness has been the most amazing gift, and if I had to go through it again to get the same results I would.
Once again, I would like to thank all of you for your e-mails of support, and I am hoping to reply to them as soon as possible.
Much love to you all.Kevin.

The Twighlight Zone

Hi all.
So, another week passes since I last contributed to this blog.
On reflection, as I write these words, it occurs to me that Kevin Core has not been around for the last two months. The start of the exodus into other realms began with the advent of the intense pain that I started to feel nearly 2 months ago. After having called the emergency services, and finding myself in the emergency room, I was given morphine in order to alleviate the pain. As these periods of pain intensified, and I sought advice from my local health-care professionals, it was decided to prescribe morphine for me on a regular basis. This was first given as a liquid that I took whenever I needed to alleviate intense pain. This later expanded into morphine patches, which resemble patches not unlike the ones that you use to stop smoking. Once applied to the skin, they remain in position for three days and introduced into the body a continuous supply of morphine. I had just got a supply of these patches just before Christmas, and it was when I had these attached to me, that we found it difficult over Christmas, in the sense I could not partake in the festivities.

I do feel to some extent that the spiritual practices that I do, which do have a refining nature on the energy bodies, can leave one susceptible to very dense chemicalisation. It may be that this has left me very susceptible to the side effects of these medications. Whatever the cause, I have found these medications are too much for me. Since writing the last blog, I have had to take the morphine because I still have periods of pain, but once again found it put me in a very difficult space in which I cannot work at all. In fact, for the last week I have been sleeping nearly 16 hours a day. This becaome unbearable when Christine was in tears because she missed me too much. I simply was not here! In order for me to function on any normal level whatsoever I have now had to leave morphine alone completely.

So what does it do?
What I will describe now is how morphine affects me, but I cannot say that it will affect everybody in this way.
As soon as I started to take morphine I realised that it centred my consciousness on the fourth dimensional plane. It totally disconnected me from any reality on the third dimensional plane, that means that I lost touch with all of reality as we experienced it in everyday waking life.
It seemed to trigger in me a spontaneous dream state that ran side-by-side with my everyday waking state. What I found very disconcerting was that I would switch from my everyday waking state, here and now, to the particular dream that I was having on the fourth dimensional plane. This would happen spontaneously and without warning. To say that confusion occurred would be an understatement. One minute I would be talking to Christine about a certain set of circumstances here and then suddenly be relating to Christine an experience I was having in a dream state on the fourth dimensional plane. For Christine, as the Observer, she heard a totally disjointed conversation. As time progressed, I found I was censoring what I would say to Christine before I would say it and check which reality I was commenting on before I opened my mouth.

Another very disconcerting side-effect of morphine is that the conscious mind could not make up its mind whether it was awake or asleep. And so halfway through a conversation with Christine I would suddenly drop my head forward and fall asleep. This could happen any time anywhere. Driving became an issue and I could not get behind the wheel any more. I would sit watching TV at night with Christine, watching a particular programme, and then suddenly snap awake half an hour later without realising that I had fallen asleep at all. This also happened while I was working on the computer. I would be writing something as part of the work that I am doing, and then the next thing I would wake-up 20 minutes later without realising that I had fallen asleep at all.
Other side-effects of the morphine was that it caused spontaneous muscle spasms. I had to be very careful of this one because I would sit on the settee with Christine drinking a cup of coffee, and the next minute my whole body would jump and the coffee would end up flying everywhere including into my lap. This was not good at all as it would shower the whole of the settee we were sitting on, and of course it is not our cottage that we are staying in.
Another side-effect was that I could not sleep at night. It caused me to experience a sense of foreboding. I found it very difficult just to lay in bed and stay in one position for longer than a few minutes without feeling a sense of paranoia creeping in.
Another side-effect was the fact that morphine interferes with the respiratory process, and one can find oneself very short of breath. This really screwed up my meditation in the sense that I do a lot of pranayama which is deep breathing. I found I could no longer do this any more. This of course caused me a lot of consternation as it is through my meditational practice that I define who I am. The taking of morphine totally disempowered me as the person I believe myself to be. I could not meditate, or sleep, and most of the time I found myself drifting into some kind of twilight zone without reference to time or space.

As I have said, the only viable thing that I can now do is to come off the morphine, which I have done for the last five days. I am now coming back into some kind of balance and feel at last like my old self once again. We are also seeing a great improvement in the pain and also the feeling of inflammation in my throat. We attribute this to the various alternative therapies that we have constantly been taking over the last two months, and we believe we are now starting to see some cellular change as a result of this. At the moment of writing this Christine and I are very optimistic that we are on the path of recovery. Once again, I would like to thank all the people who have sent me e-mails over the last couple of weeks, and who have not received a reply. As you can tell from the above I have not been in the space to be able to sit in front of the computer and write any replies to anybody. I am hoping that in the next few days I can remedy this.

As I have written everything above I am not decrying the use of morphine for one minute. I was talking to my GP today and he very rightly pointed out to me that the people who are experiencing intense pain 24/7 morphine give a much-needed respite. What one has to do whenever one is taking allopathic remedies as opposed to alternative remedies is to find the middle ground. Both have their place in the treatment of illness and it is up to us to find that for each of us.
I also write this account of my experiences with morphine so that all of you out there who may have patients who have to resort to morphine can give them advice from a place of informed decision based on what I have said. For those people who live a life of clarity of consciousness morphine will definitely prove to be a difficult path.

Consciousness Grid

For those of you who have read the article that I wrote on death and dying, which I mentioned in an earlier blog, and in which I supplied the link so that you can download the article, I referred to the fact that I have spent a lot of work working with people who are going through the dying process. In the article, I detailed specifically the help I gave to my grandmother, and the process that she went through in her death, and which I had the good grace to help her with.

Also, in this time period, I had the experience of having to come to terms with the death of my mother, and after my grandmother's death, I participated and helped in the death of my stepfather of some years previous. All in all, I felt at this time, I had a good feel for the energy of death and how it affects consciousness. I had mused in the past that if ever I had cancer I would be able to deal with the situation and the effect it would have on me because of these past links. I have to say here and now, that I was completely caught unaware by the power and the energy of contracting cancer and the effect that this had on my consciousness.
I found that with the development of cancer in my mouth I started to log in to the cancer consciousness grid, and from there start to download all of the negative energy contained within the grid.

So what do I mean when I talk about the consciousness grid?
This is a term that has been bandied around quite a lot in the New Age. It refers to a group consciousness. We are all aware that when groups of humans come together in a like mind they create a group consciousness. This is very evident at football matches, and political rallies. When a group of people come together, regardless of the size of the group, and holds a particular focus, that the entire group adheres to and recognises, they create a single entity with many parts. Each part is the individualise consciousness of one of the members of the group. The group consciousness, however, can have its own agenda, and can put forward powerful ideas and doctrines, that, when each member of the group is subjected to these ideas, they find it irresistible to resist adopting these particular ideas and doctrines. Especially in groups of football supporters, it has been shown that people who in their everyday lives are normal and placid, can, when under the influence of the group, behave totally out of character.

In the New-Age, this has become a particularly popular concept. We have all heard of the term "the 100th monkey syndrome". This comes from a study of a particular species of monkey that inhabited a group of islands in the South Seas. It was found that if a group of monkeys on one particular island were taught to retrieve food in a particular way, all of the monkeys on the other islands started to acquire food in that way, without having any physical contact with the original group on the first island. This has come to prove that the only way that the monkeys could have learned the trick, was to be part of a group consciousness that extended beyond the physical and influenced consciousness. The scientist Rupert Sheldrake has done extensive work on this and calls the consciousness grid the Anthropomorphic Field.

If one could see the field of energy, it would look like a sphere of interconnecting lines of energy. This sphere of energy exists around the planet. In fact, wherever groups of human beings come together and create a group thoughtform, they create a sphere of energy around the planet. As you can imagine, the planet is surrounded by millions of such spheres that we are constantly logging in and logging out of everyday.
The sphere of energy which I call the cancer grid is particularly powerful. It contains all of the grief, anger, and fear that has and is being created around the illness of cancer for many thousands of years. When you are diagnosed with cancer, your consciousness merges with this grid and if you are not prepared will download all of the negative energy contained within it.
So it is that when you contract cancer you have two things to deal with. One is the illness itself, and the other is the effects of being connected to this group consciousness of cancer.
As I have mentioned above, even though I had done a lot of work with people who had suffered from cancer, and been around a lot of people who had died from cancer, when I merged with this grid after having been told I had cancer, I was totally unprepared for the massive download of negative energy that overwhelmed me at the time.

It has been shown by pioneers on the subject of death and dying, like Elizabeth Kubler Ross, and Stephen Levine, that when you are confronted with an illness that potentially will end your life, you have to come to terms with a number of emotional energies that potentially could overwhelm you.
The most powerful of these is anger, fear, grief, and depression. They do not come in any order, and you can find yourself adopting anyone at any time, and cycle through them endlessly. Not only do you have to deal with your own fears about dying, and contracting cancer, but you have to come to terms with the fact that you will be connected to the consciousness grid where you are potentially subjected to all of the fear and anger of everybody that has ever had cancer on this planet over thousands of years.
The major way of coming to terms with this and to lessen the effect is to be aware that this grid exists and to make a decision that you do not want, and will not be affected by it. This will dramatically reduce the download of negative energy that can overwhelm you.

It has been recognised in the treatment of cancer that a great part of the treatment is to remain positive and absolutely know that you are going to beat and overcome it. It is extremely important that you remain positive in regard to it. It can mean the difference between life and death.
One of the other results that comes from the existence of this grid is that certain healthcare professionals are also affected by it. Christine and I have found that when we have attended meetings or appointments with certain healthcare officials who are involved in the treatment of my cancer, we have left these meetings feeling depressed and dejected. One of the reasons for this is that these people, when they are talking to you, are projecting onto you their opinion as to the outcome of your illness. If, in their opinion, the outcome is that you will die, this will be projected onto you by these people and certainly have an effect on your consciousness at that time. If this happens, you have to shake yourself after leaving the meeting and reaffirm your commitment to overcoming the illness and sloughing off any negative energy that they may have projected onto you.

It could be interpreted from the above that I am being very hard on all of the people involved. However, none of this would exist if it was taken on board that cancer can be cured by alternative methods other than Allopathic means, and that consciousness grids to do exist that affected us every day of our lives.

To those people reading this, or people who may treat people with cancer I recommend the following. The word ‘cancer’ has such powerful connotations as indicated above, that when you are dealing with the illness yourself, I have found it extremely useful to give the cancer another name other than cancer. To do so diffuses the energy and allows you to still focus on the energy of the illness without being affected by the consciousness grid. The name I have chosen for my particular cancer is Deep River.
In another part of this blog I will explain and detail the communication I have had with this illness which I call Deep River and show by giving cancer another name you can become intimate with the illness to such a degree that there is an extremely good chance that you can overcome it and let it go once and for all.
Much love.

Kevin.

New Direction

Hi All.
Once again, I must apologise for the big gap between postings on this blog site. For the last six weeks Christine and I have been through the most difficult time. It started with me getting up one morning, and halfway through my first cup of coffee, the most intense pain hit me on the left side of my face. Unable to bear it, I resorted to calling the emergency services, and found myself in the emergency room sometime later. Over a period of three hours, I was given several shots of morphine, which eventually brought the pain under control.

Since this time, this pain has re-occurred at various times but in the last four weeks has started to occur at least once every 24 hours. This has made it extremely difficult for Christine and I to live a normal life, because when we are out and this pain starts to come in, I find myself very disabled and unable to function. This can be quite embarrassing if you find yourself in the middle of Asda.
For the last four weeks we have been attempting to find a cause of this pain. I am very happy to say that we have now done that, but I am still experiencing the pain and having to come to terms with it.

The long and the short of it is the fact that the kind of medication that I am taking has adverse side effects, which is the ability to drop your blood pressure. This is what has been happening to me. All of the medication that I am taking at this moment in time are opiate derivatives, this means that they are derived from opium. One of the major side effects of opium is its ability to affect blood pressure. So the scenario is as follows: I start to feel lightheaded, and the pain starts to come down my left hand side. I immediately take morphine, which drops my blood pressure further, causing me more pain, which causes me to take more morphine, which causes my blood pressure to drop even further etc. After 1 to 2 hours of taking morphine every 20 minutes, there comes a time when I am so out of it that the pain just disappears. Unfortunately, the effect of the morphine is so somnambulistic that I cannot function normally.

Christmas was a particularly difficult time. After spending some time in the hospice, of which I will talk later in this blog, we tried various ways of administering painkilling drugs in the effort to find a balance. When I left the hospice, the drugs that I was taking were, a drug that is normally given to control epilepsy but also is very good at controlling nerve pain, and the morphine was given through a patch, very much like a no-smoking patch. I also had a bottle of liquid morphine that I could use as a backup in case the pain became extreme.
What I found was that the morphine patches introduced into my system a continuous flow of morphine, and it was this that I had the problem with. As the morphine integrated itself into my body, I found myself acting as though I had just drank 12 pints of beer, and that is okay if you want to feel drunk all the time. It was not what I wanted to experience at 8 AM on Christmas morning. I was so out of it on Christmas day that I spent most of the time asleep in bed. Of course, Christine found this very difficult because we had arranged to spend Christmas together, and so she found herself having to spend Christmas alone while I was asleep upstairs, hence the difficult time.

The ray of realisation started to come in after I felt intuitively to buy a BP monitor. When I was experiencing one of the episodes of extreme pain, we took a measurement of my blood pressure and found that it was extremely low. Having gone on the Internet to find out the causes of low blood pressure, we found that the medication I was taking was synonymous with this condition. Since discovering this I have now stopped using the morphine patches and only take it in liquid form when I need to.
At the same time as all this was going on, a copy of ‘The Secret’ came into our possession.
It was extremely refreshing to find out that they were saying, and teaching, the same things that Christine and I teach in the workshop ‘The Seven Laws Of Angelic Manifestation and Abundance’.
In The Secret, they focus on one of the laws of abundance which is the Law of Giving and Receiving. If anybody has watched this DVD, they will find that using this one law is very powerful indeed. For Christine and me it was a great gift. It allowed us to see, through our walking the path of conventional medicine, how much we had deviated from our own perception of where we should be in relation to alternative therapies. We had allowed ourselves to integrate consciousness with the allopathic veiw that there is no cure for cancer. We have found ourselves gradually succumbing to this idea, and losing hope as to whether I would ever overcome this condition. I am happy to say that watching The Secret has allowed Christine and myself to see how much we have deviated from our normal perception, and it has allowed us to snap back into where we were. For myself personally, it has allowed me to gather myself mentally and sort this out once and for all.

Where I am now, in relation to my family and the doctors and nurses that are treating me, is that I have a terminal illness, and the inevitable outcome will be that I will probably not see another Christmas. Christine and I feel this projection whenever we are in the space of these people. Watching The Secret has taken us back into where we should be, knowing absolutely that we are the creators of our own reality, and as such can create any future that we desire. Since observing this, Christine and I have undergone a major transformation through Christmas and New Year, and we now find ourselves totally rejuvenated and recharged with spiritual energy in order to recreate our future.

At the moment of writing this blog, I am organising workshops for myself throughout next year. I will be doing a major Angelic Reiki update in England, and the major part of this update will be all of the lessons and techniques that I have learnt to overcome cancer. When I look back at everything that I have gone through, I see there has been a pattern, and that pattern is a full healing system for anybody who has or anybody who knows somebody who has cancer. I am so confident that this will work that I am arranging for these workshops in the future. The fact that I am now designated terminally ill, and the future fact that I will be here to tell the tale, will be proof that what we will teach works.
I intend to put down in written form everything that I am talking about, so that each Angelic Reiki practitioner and teacher will have a proven technique for helping people overcome cancer. My focus for the next 12 months will be to pass this knowledge out to everybody.

The other focus that I will be putting my attention on will be to re-energise the workshop ‘ The Seven Laws of Angelic Manifestation and Abundance’. As I have said, the DVD The Secret just deals with one of these laws, so how much more powerful if we integrate the full Seven Laws of Abundance. It is my desire to share these seven laws with all of you so that from this moment in time we can totally clear this perception that we cannot earn enough money to support ourselves or create our future. I am absolutely sure in my knowledge that these laws work, they cannot fail to do so and I am staking my life on it, and so if you are up to it, we will walk the path together and show people how we can create any reality that we want for ourselves.

As I have to stay in England for the next 12 months, mainly to be able to get the medical support that I need, I will be teaching most of these workshops by myself in England. If any of you are interested in the Angelic Reiki update, or the Manifestation Workshop then please get in touch with me.

And so it is that we now move on and to all intents and purposes create a miracle, where I will walk away from a terminal illness using only my intention. As always, it seems I have done this as an example to all that this energy that we have been given truly works.
I would like to thank all of you who have sent me e-mails of support in the last six weeks, but I have not been able to reply due to the intensity of my medical condition.
Much love.
Kevin.

Where am I?

hello to you all and Merry Christmas.

I have had a number of e-mails concerned that I have not written anything in the blog for the last two weeks. Unfortunately, the difficult time that Christine and I had been experiencing due to the manipulation of my medication has continued during my stay in the hospice.

As I have said before, the medical professionals who are trying to look after me are coming from a place of trying to give me longer periods where I do not experience pain. This has involved giving me medication which is stronger than what I have been taking up to now. I have often been warned by spirit that if I took very dense chemicals it would affect me in a profoundly negative way. This has been the case.

When I first undertook to write this blog I felt that no matter what would happen I would always be in the space to dictate something into the computer that would allow me to pass to you the experience. I have not been prepared for the depth of pain that I have been experiencing, and how that pain disables me in every aspect of normal life. I hope to write more about this later in the blog.

I am hoping that now we are coming into a place of being able to take this medication in such a way so that it does not completely wipe me out in consciousness. I would dearly like to continue working in writing this blog, and writing the articles that I often put forward, and indeed arranging workshops for next year. Although the prognoses by the medical professionals is very bleak, Christine and I do not accept this prognoses, and definitely feel that we will work through this and I shall be teaching again next year.

The first workshop that we intend to teach together since I stopped teaching 12 months ago will be the seven-day Angelic Reiki workshop in Luxor, Egypt, in February of this year. Anybody reading this blog please go to our website and check out the dates. All I can tell you is that being so close to the doorway which leads out of this reality has had a profound effect on my consciousness and the way that I connect to spirit. It is my profound desire to be part of this workshop so that I can be that open doorway for everybody who attends the workshop, and so we can ground some of this most amazing energy that is trying its best to connect to the Earth at this time.

As I have said above, the last seven days have been extremely difficult in that the intense, acute pain has been with me every day for the last seven days. I give my beautiful wife, Christine, much praise and gratitude for preparing the most amazing Christmas dinner today, even though I was laid in bed upstairs pretty disabled and unable to celebrate the occasion. However, as evening approached we were able to have the most perfect Christmas dinner together and celebrate the occasion.

I am hoping that as stability comes in over the next few days, I may dedicate my time to recording all of the things that I wanted to put on the blogger for the last two weeks but have been unable to do so. If you feel drawn to understanding what having cancer is all about, then please look at this blog.

I will try to get out a Christmas message from Christine and myself, and our company which is The Foundation of Cosmic Fire. I cannot promise anything, however, but I am hoping to put this together and send it out to each one of you who have supported us through this difficult time and year.

Christine and I are ever in the space of gratitude for having been able to teach you, know you, and call on you in these difficult times.

Much love to you all.

Kevin.

Preparing the Way

Having spent the last three days in the hospice, here in Bradford, England, it has made me reflect on where I am now in relation to the cancer that I have.

It is interesting to know that when you become a resident in a hospice the entire focus and perception of the staff towards you is about creating the most perfect space for you to go through the dying process. One of the first things I was asked is "If your heart stops, or if you have a heart attack, would you want us to revive you?". It has brought home to me the position that I am in, in regard to the perception of the people who are treating me for the illness that I have which is cancer.
It is worth mentioning here, however, that Christine and myself do not subscribe to this view. Even though, on the face of it, it would appear that we have come to the end of the road in what we can do in order to overcome this cancer, both of us are wise enough to know that the most amazing thing can happen in the next moment. We believe that that will be the case in my case.

Part of the reason I am writing this blog, is to give insight into how you, or your patients, would experience the process of leaving the incarnation. It therefore seems to me, to be of service, if I put myself in that place, which is easy to do here, and to share with you the process I would go through if that is what I believed was true for me now.

For those of you who have read my article on death and dying, or may have looked at other sources where this subject is discussed, you will know that the whole process of dying and what happens to a person when they go through it is known. This knowledge of the path that we walk when we take our last breath has been known for centuries, and is part of what Christine and I call the Ancient Wisdom. This knowledge has been held by the Tibetans more than any other race over the last 10,000 years. Reading the book ' The Tibetan Book of the Dead', or ' The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying' by Sogyal Rinpoche, we'll give you insight into the Tibetan philosophy on this subject.
To reiterate from my article on this subject, in the West there is no preparation done by people approaching death for the process that they will go through and how to prepare for this journey. I liken it to taking a journey in our reality. If you were to take a journey to a new country that you had never visited, you would buy books and maps, source material about the way of life, the climate, the people etc. You would know what kind of clothes to take, what kind of money to use, the kind of food you will eat, the kind of weather you will encounter. Any of us going on such a journey makes these kinds of preparations. Death is the last journey that you will take in the physical body, yet we never read the guide books which shows us how to get through the process. These are the books listed above. It seems to me rather cavalier that we would undertake such an important journey without knowing how to navigate the path or to even give it much thought before the actual event. It seems to me the highest folly to do this when it has such an importance as to the next incarnation you will hold on this planet.

So how do you prepare for death?
As I have said, it is very easy for me to put myself in this place, being where I am now in the hospice. If I believed that if this was the journey I was taking at this moment in time I would do the following:-

Be aware that the last two years of your life in this physical body, and the spiritual work that you ave done while attached to this body, will colour the next incarnation you will take on this planet. This includes the areas of study that you are involved in, the connections to spirit that you have, the groups that you are working with and the people in those groups, and the focus of your spiritual work. I would put a lot of thought into the kind of incarnation I would like to create when I return in a physical body. For the last 12 months I would have been reading and practising the kind of spiritual philosophy that I would like to base my next incarnation on. For me, where I am now, this has been a renewed interest in the Qabala, and magical ritual. I would review the whole of the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime, and I would feel what part of that work has excited me the most and decide if this is what I will follow exclusively in the next incarnation.
I will decide if I want to have a relationship in my next incarnation or to follow spiritual practice totally focused on the work. I will feel and decide if I wish to experience the energy of parenting again and using parenting as a way of grounding my spiritual work.
I would look at abundance issues and see how I have created abundance for myself in this lifetime. If I have found it difficult to create abundance, I will look at how that has influenced me in this incarnation and create a pathway in the next so that I might easily walk the path again without having to do the large amount of work I had to do in this lifetime in order to ground the concept.
I would also look at power issues, how you have to embrace power as part of who you are in order to manifest spiritual energy and ground it in the world and to decide if the use of power would play a significant role in my next incarnation
Also leadership issues, about standing in front of many people and showing people who you are and speaking your truth where others may not want to hear it or agree with it. I would also look at whether I wanted to pass my spiritual knowledge out as a teacher or in writing, and to be a figurehead in the world to ground spiritual concepts and pass them to others.
I would also assess how health could be a focus of doing spiritual work, and whether I would use health as a way of self-realisation as I have in this lifetime. This would also include creating the perfect kind of body that I would desire in the next lifetime, whether that be athletic, or your average kind of body.
I would also consider where I wish to live, whether that be in the East or the West. I would recognise the fact that most of the revolutionary spiritual work that is going to be done over the next 2000 years is going to take place in the West, and I would specifically focus on the country that I wish to be born into.

Whilst constantly visualising and creating this next incarnation, imagining it as perfectly as possible using all of the five senses to make it a reality, I would also focus on clearing all of the ties to this incarnation. This would include:-

I would feel all of the emotional connections to people, places, or things that are around me now and if I feel there are any imbalances I would try my best to bring balance to every situation. I would try to make sure that I will leave this incarnation without a desire to do anything on the third dimensional plane. I would try my best to let go of any attachment to any third dimensional attraction.
I would look at unfinished business, especially with family and friends.
I would look at the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime and try to pass it over to other people to carry it on when I leave. I would try to make sure that the energy that channelled through me would then pass to the others in perfect harmony. I would also create that I would have a link once I had passed into spirit with these people, to guide and support them from wherever I find myself once I have left the incarnation.

Very importantly, I would start to walk the path of my last breath. This would be to really feel what it would be like to go through the dying process, to take my last breath, and to energetically leave the physical body. Again, I would use all of the five senses to create the sensations and perceptions of this as clearly as I could. This would ensure that I would not have any surprises, and I would be prepared for any eventuality in order to make a smooth transition from this dimension to the next.

I would feel all of the connections to spirit that I have created up to this moment in time. I would connect to all of the beings that I work with now and establish a powerful connection to them so that as I go through this transition, this connection will enable me to find myself on the plane of existence in which they are now. I would affirm my connection to the Spiritual Hierarchy, and again I would feel what it would be like to be in the presence of all of the beings are that I have worked with over the last 20 years in my spiritual work and I would really look forward to seeing them all again.
I would feel the joy of being reunited with all of my friends and family that have gone before me, and all of my brothers and sisters in spirit that have supported me. I would see myself in the most perfect space in spirit as a shining light connecting to all of my students here and passing the wisdom, energy and beauty of spirit to them from where I find myself.

I would see myself in that space now.

Lastly, I would go through all of the meditations that we teach here now that enables us to cut all of the attachments that are no longer necessary in this lifetime. This includes the Michael Kama cutting meditation, one of the most powerful meditations that we teach that allows you to strip away all of the baggage that you no longer need. I would be listening to these meditations now in order to prepare myself for the journey.

It is my recommendation that anybody who is reading these words should contemplate them and remember them, so that when it is your time to let go of this incarnation and to return back to all of our beloved brothers and sisters in spirit, that we walk the most perfect path to do that. That we all end up in the most amazing place gathered together again in brotherhood to create the next level of spirit on earth.

Painful times

Hi All.
Once again I must apologise to all of you who have been tuning into this blog to check out the words of wisdom that are dripping from my mouth as I walk through this journey with cancer.

Unfortunately, the difficult period that I find myself in since I last posted a blog has continued. The problem has been that the medication I am being given is not controlling the pain which I am experiencing through the cancer.
As we go through different combinations of drugs and the timing in taking them, it is causing me to experience different degrees of being well, and not feeling too great. As is always the case with people who have cancer, you have your good days and your bad days. Over the last three weeks I am afraid that the bad days have outweighed the good days.

I am very happy to say, however, that we have come up with the solution of me going into the local Marie Curie hospice next Monday or Tuesday, so that they can monitor the input of the different kinds of drugs they think will help me get through this period of intense pain. I will use this time to focus on this blog, and to go into the feelings that I have experienced through this illness over the last 12 months, and I should have the time to be able to devote myself to writing a comprehensive account of my experiences.

One of the things that is causing the problem, and is worth noting for healers that may come across people who do spiritual work who contract cancer, is that the practices that we do in our meditations can cause shifts in our energy bodies, which when integrated with the density of manufactured chemical remedies, can cause problems.
I myself have practised pranayama for many years which purifies the etheric body, and your Lightbody. The downside to this is that if you intake anything which is of a dense vibration, and that could be food or drink, or in this case medication, it can have an abrasive effect on the subtle body. It is this effect which I am finding difficult at this time as we go through the range of drugs that are available to me to help me get through the pain caused by the cancer.

Because of where the cancer is situated, the pain is associated with the nerves in my mouth and neck which are being aggravated by the cancerous growth. As anybody who has suffered toothache will attest, this pain can be quite intense. It also seems to be triggered without warning, without any kind of outside stimulus, and this is quite disconcerting as it can strike any time, anywhere, without warning.

I am also finding having to go through this quite difficult.
As I have always been a person who resisted taking conventional medicine, I have to swallow humble pie, and give in to the expertise of the professional doctors who are attempting to help me at this time. The medication that they are recommending are medications that are usually used in people who are depressed, or who have epileptic fits. Just this description by itself can make most of us in the holistic health arena wince at the prospect of having to take such aggressive chemicals.
One of the lessons of having cancer, is to let go of one's firm beliefs and judgements, and to accept the space in which I find myself at this time. I must trust the people who I have drawn to myself to help me. And even though these chemicals are not the first thing on the list that I would take, I must trust that in the moment that they are the best that is available at this time.

I am also finding it very difficult, because of not feeling very well at all, actually sitting down at the computer doing any kind of work. I have to be very disciplined to get up and move around day by day. It would be very easy to just go to bed and stay there. I think if I did this, though, it would have long-term detrimental effect on my outlook, and I feel I must keep going in trying to maintain some kind of daily routine. I hope, therefore, to be able to start to post blog on a regular basis.
Much love.
Kevin.

Article

For those of you new to this blog, please follow this link to download an article I wrote recently on death and dying. http://www.angelicreikimagic.com/latest.html

Much Love.
Kevin.

Difficult times

The last 12 days have been extremely difficult, hence the large gap between postings.
About 12 days ago, we had a visit from our local healthcare professionals. These included our community District Nurse, the Macmillan Nurse that deals specifically with mouth cancer, and the Marie Curie Hospice nurse who liaises with the Marie Curie Hospice for the Bradford area. This visit, which was prearranged, was to determine my needs if any. In the conversation, it emerged that they felt the fact I had to get up at 4 AM every day to take my medication was not acceptable. It was proposed that I try some different kind of medication that was longer lasting and would allow me to get through a whole night without having to be woken. It was, then, that this new medication was proposed.

After collecting this medication from the pharmacy, I started to take it over two days. It became increasingly apparent, however, that this medication was not having the same effect on the pain as the previous medication I was taking. I endured the pain for two days thinking that there was an integration time when this medication would kick in. Unfortunately, this did not happen. I then decided to go back onto my original pain medication, but unfortunately, breaking the cycle caused problems. I found myself suffering from a number of side effects of both sets of medications. These side effects included nausea, constipation, restlessness, dehydration, extreme exhaustion etc. As well as these side effects my general overall outlook was that of being very very ill.

Whilst I was going through this, we also had an appointment with the chemotherapy registrar, where they try to convince Christine and myself to consider again the chemotherapy option. And again, we explained how we did not have confidence in the therapy. One of the things that emerged, which caused some consternation, was the fact that it seemed natural for the doctors to continue to prescribe medication to alleviate side-effects from previous medication. In my time as a healer, I have come across this many times, where a patient was on a whole regime of tablets, one being taken to alleviate the side-effects of the previous. In some cases, these patients were on as much as up to 9 tablets three times a day.

The same situation arose in the meeting with the healthcare professionals. When the medication failed to kick in I called the Marie Curie nurse to let him know that I was having problems. The main problem was nausea from the new medication. Again, the response was to prescribe another medication to alleviate the nausea. In all of our dealings with the different nurses and doctors our overall impression has been one of amazement at how easily medication is given out, one on top of the other, to try to bring balance to the whole process. Of course, Christine and myself, who believe in a holistic approach, even taking one of these medications, which in most cases is a synthetic chemical, is a big deal. The ease in which these people were willing to prescribe more and more medication in their attempts to bring balance to an already uncontrollable situation did cause some consternation.

One of the other medications which I am taking, which I really resist, is a liquid form of morphine. This is the strongest medication I have to deal with. Although it is natural, it does cause me many problems. One of the main ones is dehydration, which causes major constipation. The other, is that it can leave you very spacey, and I find myself sleeping most of the day. This also causes problems between Christian and myself, as it is destroying any kind of relationship that we are having. It is a bit of a Catch-22 situation, for without the morphine the pain becomes unbearable, so I have to bite the bullet and try to keep a balance between sleeping and trying to stay awake in order to lead some kind of natural life.

Yesterday, we had to go see a registrar at the Marie Curie Hospice, who deals specifically with pain management. If we cannot get this cancer under control, and it continues to spiral into an inevitable conclusion, I will find myself on increasingly more powerful medication which will disable me in consciousness, preventing me from doing the work that I wish to do, including writing this blog. I have had to make a resolution, that no matter how deeply the medication affects me, that I should continue to put some input into this blog in order to fulfil the purpose that I created it for, that being to share this experience with you all. It feels important for me, that I continue to do this. It also helps me to talk things through for myself, and allows me to get a grip of what is going on for me.

I have now come back into some kind of balance and so I am looking forward to sharing my insights. Over the next few days, I am hoping to dictate into the blog all of the thoughts and experiences that I have missed over the last 12 days and continue to relate the quite profound insights I gained on my recent trip to Egypt.

Dying is Okay.

Dying is Okay.
How many times, when we have heard that somebody has died, have we said, "Well, it must have been their time." Or, "When it's your time to go, it's your time to go, and there is nothing you can do about it." Who decides when it is time for an incarnation to end? In the West, this subject is surrounded by myth and conjecture. However, the process does exist, and is known.

As the West slowly catches up with the teachings of Eastern mysticism, more and more of the mechanics of how the universe works is gradually being introduced into the western psyche. For instance, it is widely accepted in the Eastern philosophies that man incarnates over and over again into earthly existence until such time as he has mastered the third dimensional plane. This concept is a cornerstone of the Ancient Wisdom, which is now being widely taught throughout the West under the guise of Reiki and other healing modalities.

Even in the West the concept of the soul is debated, but what it actually is and its origins and framework is very rarely discussed either in conventional religion or even esoteric metaphor.
So what exactly is the soul?
Everything that we know and perceive is an expression of the One Life in manifestation. If we try to keep it simple, it can be said of the Divine that it has two aspects; one which is in permanent stillness, and one which is in perpetual motion. It is the interplay between these two aspects of the Divine which causes evolution as we understand it. It is the prime duality. That which is in perpetual stillness contemplates itself as the Divine. This contemplation causes a reflection of the Divine to be created within the matter of the universe. This reflection as it is projected into the matter of the universe, causes that matter to structure itself according to the patterns in consciousness which is the perception of the Divine, of itself. The Divine is then stimulated by its projected self so that it forms new concepts as to what it is. It is these new concepts which issue forth from the central stillness, gathering matter of the different planes of existence to themselves to form composite bodies, which journey through the projected universe to experience that projection, and then return to the central stillness to integrate with the Divine in order for the Divine to evolve internally. These concepts, which are projected from the Divine central stillness are known as Divine Sparks and have the ability to evolve separately from their creator. Humanity is such a wave of Divine Sparks.

The patterns in consciousness which are created by the divine contemplating itself are known as archetypes. All of creation, as it turns around the central stillness, consists of a small number of Divine patterns or archetypes. The archetype which is synonymous with consciousness and its manifestation in matter is the musical Octave. Each octave has 12 different vibrational levels, the highest being indistinguishable from the most refined, and the lowest vibrating at the densest, heaviest level. We, as a race, manifested on the Earth at this time are a fifth dimensional consciousness, centred in the fourth dimension, and inhabiting a third dimensional body. It can be said of our Soul Self that it is permanently on the sixth Dimension and exists simultaneously, as do all the bodies of manifestation throughout the 12 levels going back to the central stillness. It can also be said of the Soul Self that it is eternal viewed from our limited perception here on earth. It was created and came into total balance during a previous manifestation of this galaxy and solar system. For us, it is the perfection that we constantly strive for and seek guidance from.

Having talked about the soul, and its origins, it poses the question, "Where do we come from? What causes our manifestation here in 3-D?".
As we have stated above, reality turns on a small number of archetypes, and we have shown the prime archetype which causes manifestation. Thus an entity, our Soul, contemplates itself, and through that contemplation creates a mirror image of itself in the lower dimensions to where it exists. The same archetype comes into play at soul level and it is our Soul, contemplating its nature and asking the question, "Who am I?", which causes our manifestation to occur.
This process can be compared to the dreams that we experience in this lifetime. It is widely recognised that if we are working through some problem of self-identity, it will cause a dream to occur around that questioning. When we have a dream, we project a persona that would look like us or not, but will go through an experience that we create in order to resolve a point of contention as to what is right for us. In the Ancient Wisdom sleeping is known as the Little Death, this is because when we go to sleep and temporarily leave our physical body to experience a higher plane, the process is identical to when we take our last breath in this incarnation. The difference being that in real death it is permanent.
So when would an incarnation come to an end? This would happen when the Soul, through it's created manifestation at the third dimensional level, resolves the issue which caused that manifestation to be created in the first place.
As the soul resolves the issue, it starts to call back the projection that it has created in the lower three dimensions to where it exists. In the manifesting bodies which exist on each of these dimensional levels, this recall is felt as a tremor which ripples through the energy body of each manifestation causing energetic shifts which will ultimately lead to the disintegration of that particular body.

As the ascension process integrates more and more into humanity, it will cause latent empathic tendencies to surface in everybody. As this ability emerges, people will start to perceive the impulses being directed into their incarnation by their own soul. They will start to perceive why they were created and the goal of that particular incarnation. They will also perceive when that goal has been reached and when the incarnation is drawing to a close
They will recognise that they have completed their mission successfully. They will gather their friends around them and celebrate a job well done. As the time to leave the incarnation approaches, there will be much celebrating as their beloved brother or sister returns back to the Masters on the sixth dimensional plane. There is no grief, only joy of the merging back into Spirit of their friend.

The work of getting death to be recognised as an acceptable part of life is still in its infancy in the West. Even amongst lightworkers, there is still an attachment to the physical body. To contemplate a life without the connection to the physicality of a loved one still causes great pain.
Where cancer is concerned, to accept that the cancer will end the incarnation is viewed as a defeat in the West. One has to constantly battle to keep ahead of the illness as it tries to spread throughout the physical body; anything less than this battle is viewed as a failure. However, one has to die of something, and when the appointed time comes to each of us, when our Soul calls us back, how much more peaceful would we be and content with our lot if we recognised it was all part of the plan?
For those of us who recognise the call, but who are in relationship with a person who does not embrace the spiritual perspective, this can be a particularly difficult time. On the one hand, we are ready and willing to return back up the planes, to merge with our Soul and to become one with our friends in spirit, and on the other, being aware of the great pain that our partner is in due to our imminent demise.

My feeling is that this situation will not change in the foreseeable future. All we can hope for is that the knowledge and wisdom about death and dying is vigorously put forward into the world to alleviate the fear and suffering which is generated around death.

Group Healing with Soul

Hi all.
As promised, please find below links to a hexagram graphic that is available for download off a free file hosting website. All you have to do is click 'download' and specify where you wish the file to be placed. I was guided to place the names of all of the people who are on the healing list within the centre of this graphic. Being aware of the correspondances of the planets, the energies surrounding each person on the list, will prove to be beneficial.
I suggest that we all tune-in to these names as close to the Full Moon as possible, which is 06:19am GMT Thursday 13th November.
Each of these people has cancer.

Names.
Luke Gilpin, Fort Worth, Texas, USA.
Sam Wilkes, England.
Kevin Core, currently in England.

Hexagram graphic.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/tyrnsmnk0wm

Hexagram correspondances.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/3kjwimgnzzy

Also as promised, I have placed on the same website, the meditation I was given at the Great Pyramid 10 days ago for anybody who wishes to participate when Christine and I do it with the Saltaire Meditation Group on Friday 14th November, in England. It is in mp3 format and lasts 20 mins. Please forgive the croaky voice!

Soul Self meditation in mp3 format.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/tzqzxoyygmm

Hope you enjoy the meditation. I will continue to update the blog throughout this week.
Much love.
Kevin.

Back at Last

Hi All.
We are finally back in the cottage in Gilstead, England after much drama on the trip. Because of the bad weather at Heathrow, England, my flight from Amsterdam was cancelled. I was re-routed directly to Manchester but unfortunately my bag wasn't. All of my pain medication was in the bag and so I have been without it for 24 hours. It was a bit of a challenge yesterday as I was exposed to the full force of the effects of the cancer in my throat. Luckily, the bag was delivered last night at 9.30pm, and so I have been topping-up with painkillers all night and now am back in a stable place.

I am looking forward to getting down and sharing the insights gained over the last 10 days in Egypt. As I have said, I am going to organise a group healing for anybody suffering from cancer, to be performed on the new and full moons. If you know of anybody that you feel may benefit from this group healing and has cancer please e-mail me their name and location to
yophielangel@btconnect.com
I will put out a list containing these names a couple of days before the moon times.

I am also guided to put out a meditation to share which will connect you to your soul energy. Christine and I will be doing this meditation at 8.0pm in Friday, 14th November. I will record this meditation and place it on a file-sharing site where you can pick it up a.s.a.p..

Lastly, I hope you have all been picking up the amazing shift in consciousness which happened yesterday with the election of Barak Obalma as the next 44th President of the United States. The US was created with the sole intention of forming the next root race which will take us into the next 2,000 years. It will be the anchor for the much talked about and hoped for Golden or New Age. This was forseen 200 years ago and the formation of the US was sponsored and supported by the Rosicrucean Society, a powerful esoteric secret society centred in Europe. The whole ethos and phylosophy of the US constitution is based and draws on the Ancient Wisdom that came out of the temples of Egypt.
With the election of Barak Obalma yesterday, the American people and the people of the world have chosen the path of change which will inextricably set us on the path of creating the Golden Age. There is no more waiting and hoping. The time is now. I urge all of you to hold a place in your meditations, healings and prayers for Barak Obalma as he is a high being here to do a difficult task and needs our energatic support.
Much love to all of you.
Kevin.

From Cairo

Hi All.
Writing this short blog sat in Cairo airport at 3.30am waiting for my London Flight. Have had an interesting week in Luxor with many insights. I feel that the incarnation which is interfaced with this one also had a throat problem in the same place, and since doing healing for both of us have felt stronger.

Will post these insights as soon as I get back to England along with the details of the healing group and group meditation I have been guided to put together.
I am also looking forward to seeing Christine again as I miss her a lot when we are apart. She is sat in the airport in Mexico City as I write this. We will arrive at Manchester within 10 mins of each other at 4.0pm today.
Till later, much love.
Kevin.

Mexico City

Hi All.
As you know, Christine has been teaching a 7 Day Angelic Reiki workshop in Mexico City while I have been here in Luxor, Egypt, connecting to my past incarnations that may have been causing the cancer in my throat. This is the workshop that we teach where we give the complete Angelic Reiki system over seven days.
As always, we should be totally aware of everything that is going on around us because in truth this reality is reflecting back to us our perception of who we are. It is no surprise, then, that what Christine created and experienced in Mexico City is also part of our attempt to understand why we have co-created the cancer in my throat. It therefore feels appropriate that I should share with you what Christine has just sent me this morning of her experience of this workshop.

"Whilst it is fresh in my mind I would like to share with you all something of the Seven-Day Angelic Reiki Workshop that has just finished here just outside Mexico City.
The workshop took place in a room next to a wooden cabin in a steep wooded valley about an hour outside Mexico City. The workshop was going fine, very much as usual, but outside the workshop space I was feeling very unwelcome and somewhat threatened. At 4:30 a.m. on the morning of the fifth day I awoke with the feeling of being alienated and threatened becoming quite intense. Others in the group especially Isauro, a Mexican Shaman, had experienced the same. Kevin and I had our usual phone conversation early the next morning. He had been picking up something all week, but the e-mail that he had sent me about it never arrived.

He had been picking up that this energy was to do with the Aztec Elders, whose energy and presence in the etheric was particularly strong in this valley. From my experiences with the Mari in New Zealand, I should have understood and known better. I had not introduced myself energetically to the elders of the land. So after our telephone conversation I sang a Maori song to the Aztec Elders, it was the best I knew at the time. I opened myself up energetically to present who I was and said that I honoured their wisdom and wished to work with them. I also activated my Merkabah in my medication that morning to the speeds of the Aztec wisdom of the archetypes at each dimensional level. The energy became harmonious.
At the start of the workshop that morning I shared my experience with the group. Realisations and tears touched a number of people in the group as we came to understand that the recognition of the Angelic archetypes through the Angelic Reiki attunements reconnected the group with the archetypal wisdom of the Aztec Elders and a realisation of what this really meant dawned.
Because Angelic Reiki, is totally working with archetypes, it has made it possible for the Mexican people in the workshop (and all those who become attuned to Angelic Reiki in Mexico) to reconnect and reawaken to the ancient wisdom of this land. We also saw that the poverty and violence that is here in Mexico is primarily due to their disconnection from their abundant wisdom.The only place where I have experienced the energy of the land, its ancient wisdom and teaching of the elders to be so potent and present is in New Zealand.
Isauro shared something of what he was being shown. As he was doing this, the powerful Shaman that he is on the etheric, the grandfather of this land that he is, shone through him. I was guided immediately to bow to him and honour him as the Grandfather. At this point he shared that he had been shown this 15 days ago, and then in deep recognition he was overcome with emotion and tears ran down his face. He asked if he could bring into the workshop space his alter and do a full ceremony honouring the ancestors. This he did the next morning.

Kevin and I were formally embraced by the Aztec Elders and in the ceremony we were thanked and honoured for the wisdom that we brought to Mexico. Kevin was given the name "Cuautli", the Eagle and myself, "Yolotzin" little heart. This is the little heart of the Eagle as the messenger of love and wisdom from spirit. I will put a short video on u-tube.
This brought more emotion and tears from the group as they too started to embrace the amazing cultural heritage and connect to the Elders. From my travels in the late 90's early 20's I hold in my energy body blessings from the Mauri, Aborigines, Tibetan monks and Hopi Indians, cultures that all understand the Ancient Wisdom and are connected to Galactic consciousness. In the part of the master attunement where one breathes in light through the pranic light tube into our hearts and extended it to the rest of the galaxy, connecting to all beings of the galaxy, I was guided to extend this part of the meditation to connect in a deeper way to the galactic elders and connect together all tribes of galactic wisdom on the earth. As the group were sharing their experiences of the attunement I became aware that a new connection with the galaxy had been created, and a greater participation, by the beings of this planet in the galaxy has been opened up; the opportunity for us to participate fully as galactic begins.
At the end of the group share I shared this information. As I was doing this Isaro perceived that the Aztec Elders of this valley were imprinting a confirmation of this on the rocks outside.This morning (the last day) as part of opening up the workshop space Isaro summoned the Aztec Elders. The honour, respect and gratitude that was expressed to Kevin and myself was amazing. I was so touched by the recognition of the wisdom that Kevin holds that my tears flowed, as did for many of the group. I was given gifts from the hearts of the people of Mexico to bring back to Kevin. I had the honour of being gifted with my first feather. The feather of a parrot symbolising one who speaks wisdom and says funny things.
It is an amazing honour to be received in this way by the elders of the land. Isaro had been part of the ceremony in 2005, held very close to where the workshop is taking place. This had been a ceremony of 80 drums to bring balance to the negative energies of the earth. The sound of Iskur's drum had felt flat and awful so he had not played it since receiving it in 2005, but had been guided to bring it to the workshop that morning. That morning, as part of opening up the space, I called in the four directions and honoured the Devic Lords and Archangels of each of these cardinal directions, as Kevin and I often do. The devic energy was very potent and the honouring of the land in this way made it possible for Isaro's drum to be played and to make a beautiful sound resonated with the heart and the earth.

I have only been teaching ORDINARY! Angelic Reiki Workshop........, opening the space, reading the attunement from the manual and bringing in the energy through the healing practices.What we do, working with this Angelic Reiki energy is extraordinary and it is only when experiences like this last seven days occurs that we realise how extraordinary this gift of Angelic Reiki really is. I will just go get another tissue. I am deeply grateful to the people of Mexico for their amazing Love and Welcome and of cause to the Elders.
Love Christine.
PICTURES ON THE YAHOO GROUP SITE"

Cancer, your number's up!

This article was sent to me by Kathy, in England, a good friend of mine for many years. It summarises what Christine and I have come up with over the last three months of the perfect program for starving cancer of energy, and clearing it once and for all. Once cleared, sticking to this mode of living will ensure it will never return.

EXCELLENT ARTICLE ON CANCER AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY AND ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS (one of Americas biggest medical Universities) IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THEREIS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY .

Cancer Update from John’s Hopkins :

1.Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do notshow up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a fewbillion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no morecancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the testsare unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reachedthe detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person"s lifetime.

3.When the person"s immune system is strong the cancer cells will bedestroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumours.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiplenutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic,environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing dietand including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6.Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells andalso destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow,gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver,kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars anddamages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8.Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reducetumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do notresult in more tumor destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy andradiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hencethe person can succumb to various kinds of infections andcomplications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate andbecome resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also causecancer cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells bynot feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.WHAT CANCER CELLS FEED ON:
a.Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off oneimportant food supply to the cancer cells . Sugar substitutes likeNutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it isharmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molassesbut only in very sma ll amounts. Table salt has a chemical added tomake it w h i te in colour. Better alternative is Bragg"s aminos orsea salt.
b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in thegastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milkand substituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells are beingstarved.
c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet isacidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather thanbeef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growthhormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to peoplewith cancer.
d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds,nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkalineenvironment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Freshvegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed andreach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes t o no urish andenhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for buildinghealthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetablesincluding bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times aday. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40degrees C).
e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Greentea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxinsand heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot ofdigestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines becomeputrified and leads to more toxic buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refrainingfrom or eating less meat it frees more e nzymes to attack the proteinwalls of cancer cells and allows the body"s killer ce lls to destroythe cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence,Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable thebody"s own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplementslike vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death,the body"s normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, orunneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive andpositive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger,unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidicenvironment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn torelax and enjoy life.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment.Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down tothe cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed todestroy cancer cells.
This is an article that should be sent to anyone important in your life !

In Egypt

Hi All.
I find myself in Egypt as planned, arriving in Cairo in the early hours of 23 October. I purposely picked a hotel which was very close to the great Pyramid at Giza, but when I arrived I found it was a typical Egyptian hotel, very substandard in terms of Western values. As it was 2 AM in the morning, there was nothing I could do but accept the accommodation.

Having lived here for three years, Christine and I have found ourselves in some pretty rough places, and so this was nothing new. What was a surprise was the fact that this hotel was charging $70 a night which is unheard-of for this standard of Hotel. It is just an indication to us that the trend here is to price over and above without an effect on the standards.

I spent three days in this hotel and tuned into the energy of the great Pyramid. For those of you that do not know, the great Pyramid is located on one of the prime focal points of the UVG world grid. In a way, without getting into too much detail, each of the points on the UVG world grid are vortex points, which are multi dimensional gateways for moving through time and space in consciousness. What better place for contacting an incarnation from 5000 years ago.
Please see the photograph of the view from my hotel room window.

Since being here I have definitely felt a shift in the energy, but still unresolved as to where it is leading.

A byproduct of this trip is that on the evening of the 23rd, whilst doing a meditation, I was given the task of putting together a visualisation linked to this vortex point on the world grid. I was asked to put this meditation out into the world so that at a future time, which I have decided will be 14 November, as many people as possible can do this meditation to link into the energies which will be channelled through the Great Pyramid.

The purpose of this meditation is to link you with your soul energy or soul self. It is my intention to record this meditation as it was given to me this particular night, and then post it to a site on the Internet where you can download it if you wish.

It is important that the meditation is done exactly as it was given, and so it felt that the best way to do this was for me to speak the meditation as I was channelling it at the time. After this group meditation, the recording can be used as many times as you wish and/or passed to as many people as you wish as long as you give due credit. I was instructed to give out this meditation unconditionally, without charge.

Something else that I was very strongly impulsed to put out, was to set up a group healing for people with cancer specifically. The idea being that if you know somebody who has cancer, if you forward their name on to me, I will prepare a list to be posted to the blog, or to another site on the Internet, so the names can be recited and focused upon at the time of the new moon and full moon. It felt that if we carried on doing this over extended periods it would become a very powerful service work.

It is also to be used in conjunction with a diagram that I have prepared, the names of the people being written in the centre of the hexagram. When doing their healing, each healer creates the energy of the hexagram around each person to bring balance through the astrological energies depicted. Again, this diagram will be available at the same source on the Internet to which I am going to post the meditation as an MP3 file.

I now find myself in the Villa, in Luxor. I have not been feeling too great over the last three days and so have spent most of my time in the Villa tuning in to the surrounding area and trying to connect to any past incarnations I may have had here in Egypt. Part of what I am picking up is that the priest aspect which brought me here in the first place, also had to deal with cancer so I am not sure whether this is my cancer or his. For any of you who are still sending healing on my behalf, I would suggest that you see me as two people, one here in this lifetime, and one as a priest in Egypt 5000 years ago. Since I have been doing healing on myself from this perspective I have definitely felt a shift.

It is my intention over the next three days to go to a couple of the temples which are very close to the Villa. I have not decided which and when. One of the things about this illness is that you can never guarantee what space you are going to wake up in the following day, so you really have to take it one day at a time.

And so for those of you who are reading this blog and have been sending me healing I thank you again for your efforts and your gift.
Much love.
Kevin.

Say Cheese!

Hi all.
I know that a lot of you have asked permission to send healing, which I have given and am very thankful for. I just discovered the other day that I can post photographs to this blog, and so it felt helpful to put a photograph on the blog of the offending extension which I now have in my neck. I hope that this will help some of you in your ability to tune into it, to discover the cause of it, and to clear it.

Much love.

Kevin.