Where am I?

hello to you all and Merry Christmas.

I have had a number of e-mails concerned that I have not written anything in the blog for the last two weeks. Unfortunately, the difficult time that Christine and I had been experiencing due to the manipulation of my medication has continued during my stay in the hospice.

As I have said before, the medical professionals who are trying to look after me are coming from a place of trying to give me longer periods where I do not experience pain. This has involved giving me medication which is stronger than what I have been taking up to now. I have often been warned by spirit that if I took very dense chemicals it would affect me in a profoundly negative way. This has been the case.

When I first undertook to write this blog I felt that no matter what would happen I would always be in the space to dictate something into the computer that would allow me to pass to you the experience. I have not been prepared for the depth of pain that I have been experiencing, and how that pain disables me in every aspect of normal life. I hope to write more about this later in the blog.

I am hoping that now we are coming into a place of being able to take this medication in such a way so that it does not completely wipe me out in consciousness. I would dearly like to continue working in writing this blog, and writing the articles that I often put forward, and indeed arranging workshops for next year. Although the prognoses by the medical professionals is very bleak, Christine and I do not accept this prognoses, and definitely feel that we will work through this and I shall be teaching again next year.

The first workshop that we intend to teach together since I stopped teaching 12 months ago will be the seven-day Angelic Reiki workshop in Luxor, Egypt, in February of this year. Anybody reading this blog please go to our website and check out the dates. All I can tell you is that being so close to the doorway which leads out of this reality has had a profound effect on my consciousness and the way that I connect to spirit. It is my profound desire to be part of this workshop so that I can be that open doorway for everybody who attends the workshop, and so we can ground some of this most amazing energy that is trying its best to connect to the Earth at this time.

As I have said above, the last seven days have been extremely difficult in that the intense, acute pain has been with me every day for the last seven days. I give my beautiful wife, Christine, much praise and gratitude for preparing the most amazing Christmas dinner today, even though I was laid in bed upstairs pretty disabled and unable to celebrate the occasion. However, as evening approached we were able to have the most perfect Christmas dinner together and celebrate the occasion.

I am hoping that as stability comes in over the next few days, I may dedicate my time to recording all of the things that I wanted to put on the blogger for the last two weeks but have been unable to do so. If you feel drawn to understanding what having cancer is all about, then please look at this blog.

I will try to get out a Christmas message from Christine and myself, and our company which is The Foundation of Cosmic Fire. I cannot promise anything, however, but I am hoping to put this together and send it out to each one of you who have supported us through this difficult time and year.

Christine and I are ever in the space of gratitude for having been able to teach you, know you, and call on you in these difficult times.

Much love to you all.

Kevin.

Preparing the Way

Having spent the last three days in the hospice, here in Bradford, England, it has made me reflect on where I am now in relation to the cancer that I have.

It is interesting to know that when you become a resident in a hospice the entire focus and perception of the staff towards you is about creating the most perfect space for you to go through the dying process. One of the first things I was asked is "If your heart stops, or if you have a heart attack, would you want us to revive you?". It has brought home to me the position that I am in, in regard to the perception of the people who are treating me for the illness that I have which is cancer.
It is worth mentioning here, however, that Christine and myself do not subscribe to this view. Even though, on the face of it, it would appear that we have come to the end of the road in what we can do in order to overcome this cancer, both of us are wise enough to know that the most amazing thing can happen in the next moment. We believe that that will be the case in my case.

Part of the reason I am writing this blog, is to give insight into how you, or your patients, would experience the process of leaving the incarnation. It therefore seems to me, to be of service, if I put myself in that place, which is easy to do here, and to share with you the process I would go through if that is what I believed was true for me now.

For those of you who have read my article on death and dying, or may have looked at other sources where this subject is discussed, you will know that the whole process of dying and what happens to a person when they go through it is known. This knowledge of the path that we walk when we take our last breath has been known for centuries, and is part of what Christine and I call the Ancient Wisdom. This knowledge has been held by the Tibetans more than any other race over the last 10,000 years. Reading the book ' The Tibetan Book of the Dead', or ' The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying' by Sogyal Rinpoche, we'll give you insight into the Tibetan philosophy on this subject.
To reiterate from my article on this subject, in the West there is no preparation done by people approaching death for the process that they will go through and how to prepare for this journey. I liken it to taking a journey in our reality. If you were to take a journey to a new country that you had never visited, you would buy books and maps, source material about the way of life, the climate, the people etc. You would know what kind of clothes to take, what kind of money to use, the kind of food you will eat, the kind of weather you will encounter. Any of us going on such a journey makes these kinds of preparations. Death is the last journey that you will take in the physical body, yet we never read the guide books which shows us how to get through the process. These are the books listed above. It seems to me rather cavalier that we would undertake such an important journey without knowing how to navigate the path or to even give it much thought before the actual event. It seems to me the highest folly to do this when it has such an importance as to the next incarnation you will hold on this planet.

So how do you prepare for death?
As I have said, it is very easy for me to put myself in this place, being where I am now in the hospice. If I believed that if this was the journey I was taking at this moment in time I would do the following:-

Be aware that the last two years of your life in this physical body, and the spiritual work that you ave done while attached to this body, will colour the next incarnation you will take on this planet. This includes the areas of study that you are involved in, the connections to spirit that you have, the groups that you are working with and the people in those groups, and the focus of your spiritual work. I would put a lot of thought into the kind of incarnation I would like to create when I return in a physical body. For the last 12 months I would have been reading and practising the kind of spiritual philosophy that I would like to base my next incarnation on. For me, where I am now, this has been a renewed interest in the Qabala, and magical ritual. I would review the whole of the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime, and I would feel what part of that work has excited me the most and decide if this is what I will follow exclusively in the next incarnation.
I will decide if I want to have a relationship in my next incarnation or to follow spiritual practice totally focused on the work. I will feel and decide if I wish to experience the energy of parenting again and using parenting as a way of grounding my spiritual work.
I would look at abundance issues and see how I have created abundance for myself in this lifetime. If I have found it difficult to create abundance, I will look at how that has influenced me in this incarnation and create a pathway in the next so that I might easily walk the path again without having to do the large amount of work I had to do in this lifetime in order to ground the concept.
I would also look at power issues, how you have to embrace power as part of who you are in order to manifest spiritual energy and ground it in the world and to decide if the use of power would play a significant role in my next incarnation
Also leadership issues, about standing in front of many people and showing people who you are and speaking your truth where others may not want to hear it or agree with it. I would also look at whether I wanted to pass my spiritual knowledge out as a teacher or in writing, and to be a figurehead in the world to ground spiritual concepts and pass them to others.
I would also assess how health could be a focus of doing spiritual work, and whether I would use health as a way of self-realisation as I have in this lifetime. This would also include creating the perfect kind of body that I would desire in the next lifetime, whether that be athletic, or your average kind of body.
I would also consider where I wish to live, whether that be in the East or the West. I would recognise the fact that most of the revolutionary spiritual work that is going to be done over the next 2000 years is going to take place in the West, and I would specifically focus on the country that I wish to be born into.

Whilst constantly visualising and creating this next incarnation, imagining it as perfectly as possible using all of the five senses to make it a reality, I would also focus on clearing all of the ties to this incarnation. This would include:-

I would feel all of the emotional connections to people, places, or things that are around me now and if I feel there are any imbalances I would try my best to bring balance to every situation. I would try to make sure that I will leave this incarnation without a desire to do anything on the third dimensional plane. I would try my best to let go of any attachment to any third dimensional attraction.
I would look at unfinished business, especially with family and friends.
I would look at the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime and try to pass it over to other people to carry it on when I leave. I would try to make sure that the energy that channelled through me would then pass to the others in perfect harmony. I would also create that I would have a link once I had passed into spirit with these people, to guide and support them from wherever I find myself once I have left the incarnation.

Very importantly, I would start to walk the path of my last breath. This would be to really feel what it would be like to go through the dying process, to take my last breath, and to energetically leave the physical body. Again, I would use all of the five senses to create the sensations and perceptions of this as clearly as I could. This would ensure that I would not have any surprises, and I would be prepared for any eventuality in order to make a smooth transition from this dimension to the next.

I would feel all of the connections to spirit that I have created up to this moment in time. I would connect to all of the beings that I work with now and establish a powerful connection to them so that as I go through this transition, this connection will enable me to find myself on the plane of existence in which they are now. I would affirm my connection to the Spiritual Hierarchy, and again I would feel what it would be like to be in the presence of all of the beings are that I have worked with over the last 20 years in my spiritual work and I would really look forward to seeing them all again.
I would feel the joy of being reunited with all of my friends and family that have gone before me, and all of my brothers and sisters in spirit that have supported me. I would see myself in the most perfect space in spirit as a shining light connecting to all of my students here and passing the wisdom, energy and beauty of spirit to them from where I find myself.

I would see myself in that space now.

Lastly, I would go through all of the meditations that we teach here now that enables us to cut all of the attachments that are no longer necessary in this lifetime. This includes the Michael Kama cutting meditation, one of the most powerful meditations that we teach that allows you to strip away all of the baggage that you no longer need. I would be listening to these meditations now in order to prepare myself for the journey.

It is my recommendation that anybody who is reading these words should contemplate them and remember them, so that when it is your time to let go of this incarnation and to return back to all of our beloved brothers and sisters in spirit, that we walk the most perfect path to do that. That we all end up in the most amazing place gathered together again in brotherhood to create the next level of spirit on earth.

Painful times

Hi All.
Once again I must apologise to all of you who have been tuning into this blog to check out the words of wisdom that are dripping from my mouth as I walk through this journey with cancer.

Unfortunately, the difficult period that I find myself in since I last posted a blog has continued. The problem has been that the medication I am being given is not controlling the pain which I am experiencing through the cancer.
As we go through different combinations of drugs and the timing in taking them, it is causing me to experience different degrees of being well, and not feeling too great. As is always the case with people who have cancer, you have your good days and your bad days. Over the last three weeks I am afraid that the bad days have outweighed the good days.

I am very happy to say, however, that we have come up with the solution of me going into the local Marie Curie hospice next Monday or Tuesday, so that they can monitor the input of the different kinds of drugs they think will help me get through this period of intense pain. I will use this time to focus on this blog, and to go into the feelings that I have experienced through this illness over the last 12 months, and I should have the time to be able to devote myself to writing a comprehensive account of my experiences.

One of the things that is causing the problem, and is worth noting for healers that may come across people who do spiritual work who contract cancer, is that the practices that we do in our meditations can cause shifts in our energy bodies, which when integrated with the density of manufactured chemical remedies, can cause problems.
I myself have practised pranayama for many years which purifies the etheric body, and your Lightbody. The downside to this is that if you intake anything which is of a dense vibration, and that could be food or drink, or in this case medication, it can have an abrasive effect on the subtle body. It is this effect which I am finding difficult at this time as we go through the range of drugs that are available to me to help me get through the pain caused by the cancer.

Because of where the cancer is situated, the pain is associated with the nerves in my mouth and neck which are being aggravated by the cancerous growth. As anybody who has suffered toothache will attest, this pain can be quite intense. It also seems to be triggered without warning, without any kind of outside stimulus, and this is quite disconcerting as it can strike any time, anywhere, without warning.

I am also finding having to go through this quite difficult.
As I have always been a person who resisted taking conventional medicine, I have to swallow humble pie, and give in to the expertise of the professional doctors who are attempting to help me at this time. The medication that they are recommending are medications that are usually used in people who are depressed, or who have epileptic fits. Just this description by itself can make most of us in the holistic health arena wince at the prospect of having to take such aggressive chemicals.
One of the lessons of having cancer, is to let go of one's firm beliefs and judgements, and to accept the space in which I find myself at this time. I must trust the people who I have drawn to myself to help me. And even though these chemicals are not the first thing on the list that I would take, I must trust that in the moment that they are the best that is available at this time.

I am also finding it very difficult, because of not feeling very well at all, actually sitting down at the computer doing any kind of work. I have to be very disciplined to get up and move around day by day. It would be very easy to just go to bed and stay there. I think if I did this, though, it would have long-term detrimental effect on my outlook, and I feel I must keep going in trying to maintain some kind of daily routine. I hope, therefore, to be able to start to post blog on a regular basis.
Much love.
Kevin.

Article

For those of you new to this blog, please follow this link to download an article I wrote recently on death and dying. http://www.angelicreikimagic.com/latest.html

Much Love.
Kevin.

Difficult times

The last 12 days have been extremely difficult, hence the large gap between postings.
About 12 days ago, we had a visit from our local healthcare professionals. These included our community District Nurse, the Macmillan Nurse that deals specifically with mouth cancer, and the Marie Curie Hospice nurse who liaises with the Marie Curie Hospice for the Bradford area. This visit, which was prearranged, was to determine my needs if any. In the conversation, it emerged that they felt the fact I had to get up at 4 AM every day to take my medication was not acceptable. It was proposed that I try some different kind of medication that was longer lasting and would allow me to get through a whole night without having to be woken. It was, then, that this new medication was proposed.

After collecting this medication from the pharmacy, I started to take it over two days. It became increasingly apparent, however, that this medication was not having the same effect on the pain as the previous medication I was taking. I endured the pain for two days thinking that there was an integration time when this medication would kick in. Unfortunately, this did not happen. I then decided to go back onto my original pain medication, but unfortunately, breaking the cycle caused problems. I found myself suffering from a number of side effects of both sets of medications. These side effects included nausea, constipation, restlessness, dehydration, extreme exhaustion etc. As well as these side effects my general overall outlook was that of being very very ill.

Whilst I was going through this, we also had an appointment with the chemotherapy registrar, where they try to convince Christine and myself to consider again the chemotherapy option. And again, we explained how we did not have confidence in the therapy. One of the things that emerged, which caused some consternation, was the fact that it seemed natural for the doctors to continue to prescribe medication to alleviate side-effects from previous medication. In my time as a healer, I have come across this many times, where a patient was on a whole regime of tablets, one being taken to alleviate the side-effects of the previous. In some cases, these patients were on as much as up to 9 tablets three times a day.

The same situation arose in the meeting with the healthcare professionals. When the medication failed to kick in I called the Marie Curie nurse to let him know that I was having problems. The main problem was nausea from the new medication. Again, the response was to prescribe another medication to alleviate the nausea. In all of our dealings with the different nurses and doctors our overall impression has been one of amazement at how easily medication is given out, one on top of the other, to try to bring balance to the whole process. Of course, Christine and myself, who believe in a holistic approach, even taking one of these medications, which in most cases is a synthetic chemical, is a big deal. The ease in which these people were willing to prescribe more and more medication in their attempts to bring balance to an already uncontrollable situation did cause some consternation.

One of the other medications which I am taking, which I really resist, is a liquid form of morphine. This is the strongest medication I have to deal with. Although it is natural, it does cause me many problems. One of the main ones is dehydration, which causes major constipation. The other, is that it can leave you very spacey, and I find myself sleeping most of the day. This also causes problems between Christian and myself, as it is destroying any kind of relationship that we are having. It is a bit of a Catch-22 situation, for without the morphine the pain becomes unbearable, so I have to bite the bullet and try to keep a balance between sleeping and trying to stay awake in order to lead some kind of natural life.

Yesterday, we had to go see a registrar at the Marie Curie Hospice, who deals specifically with pain management. If we cannot get this cancer under control, and it continues to spiral into an inevitable conclusion, I will find myself on increasingly more powerful medication which will disable me in consciousness, preventing me from doing the work that I wish to do, including writing this blog. I have had to make a resolution, that no matter how deeply the medication affects me, that I should continue to put some input into this blog in order to fulfil the purpose that I created it for, that being to share this experience with you all. It feels important for me, that I continue to do this. It also helps me to talk things through for myself, and allows me to get a grip of what is going on for me.

I have now come back into some kind of balance and so I am looking forward to sharing my insights. Over the next few days, I am hoping to dictate into the blog all of the thoughts and experiences that I have missed over the last 12 days and continue to relate the quite profound insights I gained on my recent trip to Egypt.

Dying is Okay.

Dying is Okay.
How many times, when we have heard that somebody has died, have we said, "Well, it must have been their time." Or, "When it's your time to go, it's your time to go, and there is nothing you can do about it." Who decides when it is time for an incarnation to end? In the West, this subject is surrounded by myth and conjecture. However, the process does exist, and is known.

As the West slowly catches up with the teachings of Eastern mysticism, more and more of the mechanics of how the universe works is gradually being introduced into the western psyche. For instance, it is widely accepted in the Eastern philosophies that man incarnates over and over again into earthly existence until such time as he has mastered the third dimensional plane. This concept is a cornerstone of the Ancient Wisdom, which is now being widely taught throughout the West under the guise of Reiki and other healing modalities.

Even in the West the concept of the soul is debated, but what it actually is and its origins and framework is very rarely discussed either in conventional religion or even esoteric metaphor.
So what exactly is the soul?
Everything that we know and perceive is an expression of the One Life in manifestation. If we try to keep it simple, it can be said of the Divine that it has two aspects; one which is in permanent stillness, and one which is in perpetual motion. It is the interplay between these two aspects of the Divine which causes evolution as we understand it. It is the prime duality. That which is in perpetual stillness contemplates itself as the Divine. This contemplation causes a reflection of the Divine to be created within the matter of the universe. This reflection as it is projected into the matter of the universe, causes that matter to structure itself according to the patterns in consciousness which is the perception of the Divine, of itself. The Divine is then stimulated by its projected self so that it forms new concepts as to what it is. It is these new concepts which issue forth from the central stillness, gathering matter of the different planes of existence to themselves to form composite bodies, which journey through the projected universe to experience that projection, and then return to the central stillness to integrate with the Divine in order for the Divine to evolve internally. These concepts, which are projected from the Divine central stillness are known as Divine Sparks and have the ability to evolve separately from their creator. Humanity is such a wave of Divine Sparks.

The patterns in consciousness which are created by the divine contemplating itself are known as archetypes. All of creation, as it turns around the central stillness, consists of a small number of Divine patterns or archetypes. The archetype which is synonymous with consciousness and its manifestation in matter is the musical Octave. Each octave has 12 different vibrational levels, the highest being indistinguishable from the most refined, and the lowest vibrating at the densest, heaviest level. We, as a race, manifested on the Earth at this time are a fifth dimensional consciousness, centred in the fourth dimension, and inhabiting a third dimensional body. It can be said of our Soul Self that it is permanently on the sixth Dimension and exists simultaneously, as do all the bodies of manifestation throughout the 12 levels going back to the central stillness. It can also be said of the Soul Self that it is eternal viewed from our limited perception here on earth. It was created and came into total balance during a previous manifestation of this galaxy and solar system. For us, it is the perfection that we constantly strive for and seek guidance from.

Having talked about the soul, and its origins, it poses the question, "Where do we come from? What causes our manifestation here in 3-D?".
As we have stated above, reality turns on a small number of archetypes, and we have shown the prime archetype which causes manifestation. Thus an entity, our Soul, contemplates itself, and through that contemplation creates a mirror image of itself in the lower dimensions to where it exists. The same archetype comes into play at soul level and it is our Soul, contemplating its nature and asking the question, "Who am I?", which causes our manifestation to occur.
This process can be compared to the dreams that we experience in this lifetime. It is widely recognised that if we are working through some problem of self-identity, it will cause a dream to occur around that questioning. When we have a dream, we project a persona that would look like us or not, but will go through an experience that we create in order to resolve a point of contention as to what is right for us. In the Ancient Wisdom sleeping is known as the Little Death, this is because when we go to sleep and temporarily leave our physical body to experience a higher plane, the process is identical to when we take our last breath in this incarnation. The difference being that in real death it is permanent.
So when would an incarnation come to an end? This would happen when the Soul, through it's created manifestation at the third dimensional level, resolves the issue which caused that manifestation to be created in the first place.
As the soul resolves the issue, it starts to call back the projection that it has created in the lower three dimensions to where it exists. In the manifesting bodies which exist on each of these dimensional levels, this recall is felt as a tremor which ripples through the energy body of each manifestation causing energetic shifts which will ultimately lead to the disintegration of that particular body.

As the ascension process integrates more and more into humanity, it will cause latent empathic tendencies to surface in everybody. As this ability emerges, people will start to perceive the impulses being directed into their incarnation by their own soul. They will start to perceive why they were created and the goal of that particular incarnation. They will also perceive when that goal has been reached and when the incarnation is drawing to a close
They will recognise that they have completed their mission successfully. They will gather their friends around them and celebrate a job well done. As the time to leave the incarnation approaches, there will be much celebrating as their beloved brother or sister returns back to the Masters on the sixth dimensional plane. There is no grief, only joy of the merging back into Spirit of their friend.

The work of getting death to be recognised as an acceptable part of life is still in its infancy in the West. Even amongst lightworkers, there is still an attachment to the physical body. To contemplate a life without the connection to the physicality of a loved one still causes great pain.
Where cancer is concerned, to accept that the cancer will end the incarnation is viewed as a defeat in the West. One has to constantly battle to keep ahead of the illness as it tries to spread throughout the physical body; anything less than this battle is viewed as a failure. However, one has to die of something, and when the appointed time comes to each of us, when our Soul calls us back, how much more peaceful would we be and content with our lot if we recognised it was all part of the plan?
For those of us who recognise the call, but who are in relationship with a person who does not embrace the spiritual perspective, this can be a particularly difficult time. On the one hand, we are ready and willing to return back up the planes, to merge with our Soul and to become one with our friends in spirit, and on the other, being aware of the great pain that our partner is in due to our imminent demise.

My feeling is that this situation will not change in the foreseeable future. All we can hope for is that the knowledge and wisdom about death and dying is vigorously put forward into the world to alleviate the fear and suffering which is generated around death.

Group Healing with Soul

Hi all.
As promised, please find below links to a hexagram graphic that is available for download off a free file hosting website. All you have to do is click 'download' and specify where you wish the file to be placed. I was guided to place the names of all of the people who are on the healing list within the centre of this graphic. Being aware of the correspondances of the planets, the energies surrounding each person on the list, will prove to be beneficial.
I suggest that we all tune-in to these names as close to the Full Moon as possible, which is 06:19am GMT Thursday 13th November.
Each of these people has cancer.

Names.
Luke Gilpin, Fort Worth, Texas, USA.
Sam Wilkes, England.
Kevin Core, currently in England.

Hexagram graphic.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/tyrnsmnk0wm

Hexagram correspondances.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/3kjwimgnzzy

Also as promised, I have placed on the same website, the meditation I was given at the Great Pyramid 10 days ago for anybody who wishes to participate when Christine and I do it with the Saltaire Meditation Group on Friday 14th November, in England. It is in mp3 format and lasts 20 mins. Please forgive the croaky voice!

Soul Self meditation in mp3 format.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/tzqzxoyygmm

Hope you enjoy the meditation. I will continue to update the blog throughout this week.
Much love.
Kevin.