This article was sent to me by Kathy, in England, a good friend of mine for many years. It summarises what Christine and I have come up with over the last three months of the perfect program for starving cancer of energy, and clearing it once and for all. Once cleared, sticking to this mode of living will ensure it will never return.
EXCELLENT ARTICLE ON CANCER AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY AND ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS (one of Americas biggest medical Universities) IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THEREIS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY .
Cancer Update from John’s Hopkins :
1.Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do notshow up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a fewbillion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no morecancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the testsare unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reachedthe detectable size.
2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person"s lifetime.
3.When the person"s immune system is strong the cancer cells will bedestroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumours.
4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiplenutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic,environmental, food and lifestyle factors.
5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing dietand including supplements will strengthen the immune system.
6.Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells andalso destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow,gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver,kidneys, heart, lungs etc.
7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars anddamages healthy cells, tissues and organs.
8.Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reducetumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do notresult in more tumor destruction.
9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy andradiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hencethe person can succumb to various kinds of infections andcomplications.
10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate andbecome resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also causecancer cells to spread to other sites.
11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells bynot feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.WHAT CANCER CELLS FEED ON:
a.Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off oneimportant food supply to the cancer cells . Sugar substitutes likeNutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it isharmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molassesbut only in very sma ll amounts. Table salt has a chemical added tomake it w h i te in colour. Better alternative is Bragg"s aminos orsea salt.
b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in thegastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milkand substituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells are beingstarved.
c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet isacidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather thanbeef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growthhormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to peoplewith cancer.
d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds,nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkalineenvironment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Freshvegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed andreach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes t o no urish andenhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for buildinghealthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetablesincluding bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times aday. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40degrees C).
e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Greentea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxinsand heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.
12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot ofdigestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines becomeputrified and leads to more toxic buildup.
13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refrainingfrom or eating less meat it frees more e nzymes to attack the proteinwalls of cancer cells and allows the body"s killer ce lls to destroythe cancer cells.
14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence,Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable thebody"s own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplementslike vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death,the body"s normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, orunneeded cells.
15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive andpositive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger,unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidicenvironment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn torelax and enjoy life.
16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment.Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down tothe cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed todestroy cancer cells.
This is an article that should be sent to anyone important in your life !
Thursday, October 30, 2008
In Egypt
Hi All.
I find myself in Egypt as planned, arriving in Cairo in the early hours of 23 October. I purposely picked a hotel which was very close to the great Pyramid at Giza, but when I arrived I found it was a typical Egyptian hotel, very substandard in terms of Western values. As it was 2 AM in the morning, there was nothing I could do but accept the accommodation.
I find myself in Egypt as planned, arriving in Cairo in the early hours of 23 October. I purposely picked a hotel which was very close to the great Pyramid at Giza, but when I arrived I found it was a typical Egyptian hotel, very substandard in terms of Western values. As it was 2 AM in the morning, there was nothing I could do but accept the accommodation.
Having lived here for three years, Christine and I have found ourselves in some pretty rough places, and so this was nothing new. What was a surprise was the fact that this hotel was charging $70 a night which is unheard-of for this standard of Hotel. It is just an indication to us that the trend here is to price over and above without an effect on the standards.
I spent three days in this hotel and tuned into the energy of the great Pyramid. For those of you that do not know, the great Pyramid is located on one of the prime focal points of the UVG world grid. In a way, without getting into too much detail, each of the points on the UVG world grid are vortex points, which are multi dimensional gateways for moving through time and space in consciousness. What better place for contacting an incarnation from 5000 years ago.
Please see the photograph of the view from my hotel room window.
Since being here I have definitely felt a shift in the energy, but still unresolved as to where it is leading.
A byproduct of this trip is that on the evening of the 23rd, whilst doing a meditation, I was given the task of putting together a visualisation linked to this vortex point on the world grid. I was asked to put this meditation out into the world so that at a future time, which I have decided will be 14 November, as many people as possible can do this meditation to link into the energies which will be channelled through the Great Pyramid.
The purpose of this meditation is to link you with your soul energy or soul self. It is my intention to record this meditation as it was given to me this particular night, and then post it to a site on the Internet where you can download it if you wish.
It is important that the meditation is done exactly as it was given, and so it felt that the best way to do this was for me to speak the meditation as I was channelling it at the time. After this group meditation, the recording can be used as many times as you wish and/or passed to as many people as you wish as long as you give due credit. I was instructed to give out this meditation unconditionally, without charge.
Something else that I was very strongly impulsed to put out, was to set up a group healing for people with cancer specifically. The idea being that if you know somebody who has cancer, if you forward their name on to me, I will prepare a list to be posted to the blog, or to another site on the Internet, so the names can be recited and focused upon at the time of the new moon and full moon. It felt that if we carried on doing this over extended periods it would become a very powerful service work.
It is also to be used in conjunction with a diagram that I have prepared, the names of the people being written in the centre of the hexagram. When doing their healing, each healer creates the energy of the hexagram around each person to bring balance through the astrological energies depicted. Again, this diagram will be available at the same source on the Internet to which I am going to post the meditation as an MP3 file.
I now find myself in the Villa, in Luxor. I have not been feeling too great over the last three days and so have spent most of my time in the Villa tuning in to the surrounding area and trying to connect to any past incarnations I may have had here in Egypt. Part of what I am picking up is that the priest aspect which brought me here in the first place, also had to deal with cancer so I am not sure whether this is my cancer or his. For any of you who are still sending healing on my behalf, I would suggest that you see me as two people, one here in this lifetime, and one as a priest in Egypt 5000 years ago. Since I have been doing healing on myself from this perspective I have definitely felt a shift.
It is my intention over the next three days to go to a couple of the temples which are very close to the Villa. I have not decided which and when. One of the things about this illness is that you can never guarantee what space you are going to wake up in the following day, so you really have to take it one day at a time.
And so for those of you who are reading this blog and have been sending me healing I thank you again for your efforts and your gift.
Much love.
Kevin.
Much love.
Kevin.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Say Cheese!
Hi all.
I know that a lot of you have asked permission to send healing, which I have given and am very thankful for. I just discovered the other day that I can post photographs to this blog, and so it felt helpful to put a photograph on the blog of the offending extension which I now have in my neck. I hope that this will help some of you in your ability to tune into it, to discover the cause of it, and to clear it.
I know that a lot of you have asked permission to send healing, which I have given and am very thankful for. I just discovered the other day that I can post photographs to this blog, and so it felt helpful to put a photograph on the blog of the offending extension which I now have in my neck. I hope that this will help some of you in your ability to tune into it, to discover the cause of it, and to clear it.
Much love.
Kevin.
Egypt Calls
Hi all.
After having gained insight into the cause of the cancer in my neck and throat from a good friend, which I posted to the blog site a week ago, Christine and I journeyed to London to see a guy there who specialises in shamanic energy and clearing. After going through a two-hour consultation we feel we have gained a more powerful perspective on what is going on.
Prior to my going down to London, I had seen this energy was coming from a priest in Egypt 5000 years ago. In meditation, I have seen this priest stood before an altar in one of the temples in Thebes, which is now Luxor, 5000 years ago. Behind him was a group of people who formed the shape of a wedge or Chevron. As each of these priests stood behind the other, they channelled the energy forward to the lead figure which is the person who I had been perceiving in my meditations. This priest was baldheaded, and dressed in gold ritual garments. My feeling was that this person was channelling all of the energies of the temple, and his fellow priests, down through time from 5000 years ago to me here now.
Having passed this information to others of our friends, and my own personal view, we came up with the conclusion that this energy was not necessarily dark. The guy that we consulted in London last week also came up with the same conclusions. He felt that this guy, or priest, was me 5000 years ago attempting to connect to me here now. The energies which were being transmitted was the knowledge and wisdom of the ritual magic practised in the temples of Egypt 5000 years ago.
This definitely had a resonance with me, because in this lifetime, from my earliest attempts at meditation, I have been very powerfully drawn to ritual magic. However, I have not immersed myself in it as it is not something that can be easily taught in workshops as they are presented in the West through the New Age movement. It seems when Christine and I moved to Egypt, the energies increased exponentially causing a block of energy in my throat as I refuse to express them through the workshops and teaching that I have been doing.
It is obvious, then, that the way through this is for me to express and verbalise the energies which are being transmitted to me from that part of me 5000 years ago. To this end, I will travel to Egypt tomorrow to try to connect to this incarnation in order to bring balance to the situation.
Initially, I will be staying in a hotel right next to the pyramids on the Giza plateau. My intention is to sit in the Kings chamber, in the great Pyramid, at 1 PM on the afternoon of Thursday and Friday of this week. If any of you would like to tune in at that time and lend your support I would be happy to have you there with me.
It feels that I would like to catalogue this journey and share it with you, and so it is my intention to create a verbal and pictorial diary of the two-week trip that I will undertake to Egypt.
On Saturday, I will travel up to Luxor and stay in our Villa there one-week. During my time in Luxor, I will go to the temples that we know so well near the Valley of the Kings, and do some meditation in order to integrate this energy which has been waiting so long for me to contact it. Again, I will try to keep a verbal and pictorial diary of events as they unfold.
Since this new information has been revealed to us I have definitely felt a shift in the energy around me and I am hoping that as I integrate these energies more and more, and contact that part of myself from all those years ago, I will see some definite evidence of a positive effect on the physical plane.
The solution presented to us by the guy in London, was that I should now start to practice ritual magic. For those of you who have looked at the Angelic Reiki website, you will see that we have already posted free meditations based on ritual magic, which have been practice for many centuries, and which have come out of the temples of Egypt, in order to clear away negative energy. These medications are still available to anybody who wishes to download them.
It is this ritual of the Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram which I will be practising every day, along with the Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram. These are the main two which I have been instructed to start with. As these energies unfold I foresee that I will gravitate to other rituals as they become revealed.
I have also been instructed to use the Gatatri Mantra which I will be chanting on a daily basis for 108 times each session. This is an extremely powerful mantra contacting the Goddess energies. Luckily, I have used it in the past and know it off by heart and so it is only a matter of getting down and doing it every day.
If anybody would like to follow these rituals, or have me post the Gayatri Mantra to the blog site I would be happy to do so if you would drop me a short e-mail requesting this. I would just like to remind you that I am now going back to Egypt where the Internet connection is not the greatest in the world, and so please bear with me if I do not reply to your e-mails swiftly.
At first, I felt much trepidation in going to Egypt unsupported by myself, especially after having two episodes of intense pain. However, I recognise that this creation came from a place of fear, and as we all know fear is the one energy which will shut down spiritual work. Since I have worked through this, I am in a more positive place to face the next two weeks and what will be revealed on this journey.
Much love to you all.
Kevin.
After having gained insight into the cause of the cancer in my neck and throat from a good friend, which I posted to the blog site a week ago, Christine and I journeyed to London to see a guy there who specialises in shamanic energy and clearing. After going through a two-hour consultation we feel we have gained a more powerful perspective on what is going on.
Prior to my going down to London, I had seen this energy was coming from a priest in Egypt 5000 years ago. In meditation, I have seen this priest stood before an altar in one of the temples in Thebes, which is now Luxor, 5000 years ago. Behind him was a group of people who formed the shape of a wedge or Chevron. As each of these priests stood behind the other, they channelled the energy forward to the lead figure which is the person who I had been perceiving in my meditations. This priest was baldheaded, and dressed in gold ritual garments. My feeling was that this person was channelling all of the energies of the temple, and his fellow priests, down through time from 5000 years ago to me here now.
Having passed this information to others of our friends, and my own personal view, we came up with the conclusion that this energy was not necessarily dark. The guy that we consulted in London last week also came up with the same conclusions. He felt that this guy, or priest, was me 5000 years ago attempting to connect to me here now. The energies which were being transmitted was the knowledge and wisdom of the ritual magic practised in the temples of Egypt 5000 years ago.
This definitely had a resonance with me, because in this lifetime, from my earliest attempts at meditation, I have been very powerfully drawn to ritual magic. However, I have not immersed myself in it as it is not something that can be easily taught in workshops as they are presented in the West through the New Age movement. It seems when Christine and I moved to Egypt, the energies increased exponentially causing a block of energy in my throat as I refuse to express them through the workshops and teaching that I have been doing.
It is obvious, then, that the way through this is for me to express and verbalise the energies which are being transmitted to me from that part of me 5000 years ago. To this end, I will travel to Egypt tomorrow to try to connect to this incarnation in order to bring balance to the situation.
Initially, I will be staying in a hotel right next to the pyramids on the Giza plateau. My intention is to sit in the Kings chamber, in the great Pyramid, at 1 PM on the afternoon of Thursday and Friday of this week. If any of you would like to tune in at that time and lend your support I would be happy to have you there with me.
It feels that I would like to catalogue this journey and share it with you, and so it is my intention to create a verbal and pictorial diary of the two-week trip that I will undertake to Egypt.
On Saturday, I will travel up to Luxor and stay in our Villa there one-week. During my time in Luxor, I will go to the temples that we know so well near the Valley of the Kings, and do some meditation in order to integrate this energy which has been waiting so long for me to contact it. Again, I will try to keep a verbal and pictorial diary of events as they unfold.
Since this new information has been revealed to us I have definitely felt a shift in the energy around me and I am hoping that as I integrate these energies more and more, and contact that part of myself from all those years ago, I will see some definite evidence of a positive effect on the physical plane.
The solution presented to us by the guy in London, was that I should now start to practice ritual magic. For those of you who have looked at the Angelic Reiki website, you will see that we have already posted free meditations based on ritual magic, which have been practice for many centuries, and which have come out of the temples of Egypt, in order to clear away negative energy. These medications are still available to anybody who wishes to download them.
It is this ritual of the Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram which I will be practising every day, along with the Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram. These are the main two which I have been instructed to start with. As these energies unfold I foresee that I will gravitate to other rituals as they become revealed.
I have also been instructed to use the Gatatri Mantra which I will be chanting on a daily basis for 108 times each session. This is an extremely powerful mantra contacting the Goddess energies. Luckily, I have used it in the past and know it off by heart and so it is only a matter of getting down and doing it every day.
If anybody would like to follow these rituals, or have me post the Gayatri Mantra to the blog site I would be happy to do so if you would drop me a short e-mail requesting this. I would just like to remind you that I am now going back to Egypt where the Internet connection is not the greatest in the world, and so please bear with me if I do not reply to your e-mails swiftly.
At first, I felt much trepidation in going to Egypt unsupported by myself, especially after having two episodes of intense pain. However, I recognise that this creation came from a place of fear, and as we all know fear is the one energy which will shut down spiritual work. Since I have worked through this, I am in a more positive place to face the next two weeks and what will be revealed on this journey.
Much love to you all.
Kevin.
A perspective from Christine.
Hi, as you will know I am now back in the UK, but have booked my flights to Mexico City for the end of the month, as it feels to both Kevin and I important that I fulfil this commitment. Nora, who invited us to go and teach Angelic Reiki in Mexico City last March, has spent eight months translating all the workbooks into Spanish. Kevin and I trust that he will be okay during the short time and I'll be away. We have postponed the workshops in Sedona until June 2009.
As you know the purpose of this blogger is a platform to share our perspective and experiences of this disease called cancer. All diseases express themselves through the physical and on a consciousness level. As you may expect we are particularly interested in the effect that cancer has on consciousness. There is a particular consciousness that comes with cancer and I think it can be understood by the nature of how the disease expresses itself. We produce cancer cells all the time and the normal processes for our immune system is to mop up the rogue cells that do not become sufficiently defined and therefore have no part to play in our body. Most new cells that are created become what they are meant to be. A new liver cell develops into a liver cell etc. most cells have within them the "intelligence" to grow into what they were meant to be. As those of you who do Angelic Reiki know, linking into a collective consciousness is very powerful and when one gets cancer one is automatically a member of "the cancer collective consciousness club" and an exceedingly proactive club this is.
Philip Day believes the cancer is a virus. A virus is so simple that it is incomplete and needs a host to express itself through. The characteristics of the consciousness aspect of cancer seem to be extremely potent. They have also been excessively energised by our culture's focus on cancer and by the number of people who have succumbed to this disease. It is difficult at first to define what the characteristics of this consciousness are, because they express themselves through the personality. What I mean by this is that if someone is experiencing cancer depression, then they do depression in their way. It is difficult to see what is actually cancer consciousness and that person's consciousness. It is not possible here to go through all the particular ways in which cancer expresses itself, but it does feel very important to realise that there is an energy that is rather like being overshadowed by a presence, that seems to come with this disease. As we know it is so easy to become identified with the feelings that we are having, and think they are ours.
To give one example though. Depression and hopelessness with cancer seems to have a characteristic of the desire to be separate. The hopelessness does not look for reassurance and support it rather turns inwards and a feeling of the desire to withdraw. We know of people who will even leave their loved ones. The hopelessness of cancer seems to create an acceptance of death, the illusion of the ultimate separation. They suffer alone and are often unwilling to actually communicate the pain that they are in. The cancer cell is separate and isolated from the rest of the cells, it is a rogue. It cannot fulfil its purpose; indeed it has no purpose physically.
There has been some excellent research showing that cancer comes from suppressed emotions (Dr. Candice Purt). This may be a significant traumatic event in our lives, but I also think it can be due to the ultimate emotion that we suppress, the grief of separation from the divine. As Djwhal Khul says through Alice Bailey, "all disease is as result of inhibited Soul life". In other words when we embrace the truth of our own divinity and totally let go of identification with personality and ego, WE CANNOT BE ILL. So all disease comes from the delusion of separation, the divine cannot be ill. The nature of cancer seems to express the characteristics of this so well.
What I am trying to say is that the emotional stuff that comes with cancer is quite complex and this complexity increases significantly the challenges for both the person with the disease and those close around them. The energetic shroud of cancer seems to me to be fourfold.
1. The enigmatic consciousness of the disease itself which is characterised by its very nature.
2. The modern-day focus on the disease and the consequential group consciousness that this has created.
3. The powerfully projected expectations of the medical profession (this has an effect beyond what I would ever have anticipated).
4. The normal feelings of the individual due to being unwell.
The fourth item in this list is what is “normal to feel when we are unwell, but my information is that on average the individuals "normal" feelings constitute only 50%, the rest is made up of 1, 2, & 3. As you can see from this it is exceptionally difficult with cancer to know what belongs to you or your loved one and what is absolutely nothing to do with them at all. Imagine having a cold and feeling twice as bad simply because of the other energies that are associated with it. I think that these factors contribute to the great swings in emotions that occur around cancer and which make it much more difficult to deal with than it needs to be.
So to put it plainly if someone with cancer is feeling despondent, depressed, anxious, hopelessness, separate etc these feelings are twice what is actually normal for that person. This distorts the person’s perception of reality and the ability of those around them to respond appropriately. Add the effects of conventional treatment to this and you really do have a terminal cocktail.
The blessing of cancer is that for those who will search, it is the guide for each of us to find and embrace the truth of our divinity. In this I do not mean some kind of intellectual understanding I mean a total integration of knowing to the extent where the personality has no agendas. You will recognise such person because they do not find themselves important and they are likely to fall over laughing at the illusion. The gift for the carer and loved ones is that you are given the best situation possible to practice non attachment and acceptance. It’s spiritual marathon Training.
If it is true, which it is, that thought forms manifest on the fourth dimensional astral plane, Kevin has more funerals planned for him and than soft Mick! !!!!!!!!!!!
Hi, as you will know I am now back in the UK, but have booked my flights to Mexico City for the end of the month, as it feels to both Kevin and I important that I fulfil this commitment. Nora, who invited us to go and teach Angelic Reiki in Mexico City last March, has spent eight months translating all the workbooks into Spanish. Kevin and I trust that he will be okay during the short time and I'll be away. We have postponed the workshops in Sedona until June 2009.
As you know the purpose of this blogger is a platform to share our perspective and experiences of this disease called cancer. All diseases express themselves through the physical and on a consciousness level. As you may expect we are particularly interested in the effect that cancer has on consciousness. There is a particular consciousness that comes with cancer and I think it can be understood by the nature of how the disease expresses itself. We produce cancer cells all the time and the normal processes for our immune system is to mop up the rogue cells that do not become sufficiently defined and therefore have no part to play in our body. Most new cells that are created become what they are meant to be. A new liver cell develops into a liver cell etc. most cells have within them the "intelligence" to grow into what they were meant to be. As those of you who do Angelic Reiki know, linking into a collective consciousness is very powerful and when one gets cancer one is automatically a member of "the cancer collective consciousness club" and an exceedingly proactive club this is.
Philip Day believes the cancer is a virus. A virus is so simple that it is incomplete and needs a host to express itself through. The characteristics of the consciousness aspect of cancer seem to be extremely potent. They have also been excessively energised by our culture's focus on cancer and by the number of people who have succumbed to this disease. It is difficult at first to define what the characteristics of this consciousness are, because they express themselves through the personality. What I mean by this is that if someone is experiencing cancer depression, then they do depression in their way. It is difficult to see what is actually cancer consciousness and that person's consciousness. It is not possible here to go through all the particular ways in which cancer expresses itself, but it does feel very important to realise that there is an energy that is rather like being overshadowed by a presence, that seems to come with this disease. As we know it is so easy to become identified with the feelings that we are having, and think they are ours.
To give one example though. Depression and hopelessness with cancer seems to have a characteristic of the desire to be separate. The hopelessness does not look for reassurance and support it rather turns inwards and a feeling of the desire to withdraw. We know of people who will even leave their loved ones. The hopelessness of cancer seems to create an acceptance of death, the illusion of the ultimate separation. They suffer alone and are often unwilling to actually communicate the pain that they are in. The cancer cell is separate and isolated from the rest of the cells, it is a rogue. It cannot fulfil its purpose; indeed it has no purpose physically.
There has been some excellent research showing that cancer comes from suppressed emotions (Dr. Candice Purt). This may be a significant traumatic event in our lives, but I also think it can be due to the ultimate emotion that we suppress, the grief of separation from the divine. As Djwhal Khul says through Alice Bailey, "all disease is as result of inhibited Soul life". In other words when we embrace the truth of our own divinity and totally let go of identification with personality and ego, WE CANNOT BE ILL. So all disease comes from the delusion of separation, the divine cannot be ill. The nature of cancer seems to express the characteristics of this so well.
What I am trying to say is that the emotional stuff that comes with cancer is quite complex and this complexity increases significantly the challenges for both the person with the disease and those close around them. The energetic shroud of cancer seems to me to be fourfold.
1. The enigmatic consciousness of the disease itself which is characterised by its very nature.
2. The modern-day focus on the disease and the consequential group consciousness that this has created.
3. The powerfully projected expectations of the medical profession (this has an effect beyond what I would ever have anticipated).
4. The normal feelings of the individual due to being unwell.
The fourth item in this list is what is “normal to feel when we are unwell, but my information is that on average the individuals "normal" feelings constitute only 50%, the rest is made up of 1, 2, & 3. As you can see from this it is exceptionally difficult with cancer to know what belongs to you or your loved one and what is absolutely nothing to do with them at all. Imagine having a cold and feeling twice as bad simply because of the other energies that are associated with it. I think that these factors contribute to the great swings in emotions that occur around cancer and which make it much more difficult to deal with than it needs to be.
So to put it plainly if someone with cancer is feeling despondent, depressed, anxious, hopelessness, separate etc these feelings are twice what is actually normal for that person. This distorts the person’s perception of reality and the ability of those around them to respond appropriately. Add the effects of conventional treatment to this and you really do have a terminal cocktail.
The blessing of cancer is that for those who will search, it is the guide for each of us to find and embrace the truth of our divinity. In this I do not mean some kind of intellectual understanding I mean a total integration of knowing to the extent where the personality has no agendas. You will recognise such person because they do not find themselves important and they are likely to fall over laughing at the illusion. The gift for the carer and loved ones is that you are given the best situation possible to practice non attachment and acceptance. It’s spiritual marathon Training.
If it is true, which it is, that thought forms manifest on the fourth dimensional astral plane, Kevin has more funerals planned for him and than soft Mick! !!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, October 13, 2008
Your help needed
Hi all.
Tomorrow, Christine and I journey down to London to have a consultation with a Shamanic Master Teacher. The reason for this are as follows. As you can probably imagine, over the three years that I have had this illness, I have received many messages of support and guidance from various people, and our friends. Two of our friends, who are very well known as channels and exceptional spiritual teachers are Jennifer Posada and Edward Courtenay. Please see their websites below.
http://www.edwincourtenay.co.uk/
http://www.jenniferposada.com/
These two of our friends, including others of our students, came up with very similar perceptions of me being interfered with by dark forces originating out of the temples of Egypt. It is also a consideration to remember that this cancer first appeared one month after Christine and I moved to the Valley of the Kings in Luxor, Egypt.
Now, as I try to perceive where this energy attached to my left shoulder is coming from, I see a temple in Egypt shrouded in darkness, there is a large group of Egyptian priest stood in front of a large alter. They are stood in the shape of a Chevron. At the head of the Chevron is a baldheaded priest dressed in gold. All of the priests behind him are channelling energy forward so that it is channelled into this particular priest and thence to me. This energy is flowing now even though this group is assembled in this temple 5000 years ago. Since receiving this information I have started the process of reversing this energy, and since doing this have felt the return of strength that I have mentioned in the previous blogs.
When I started to put out the information in this blog about where I am now, a good friend of mine, who I have known for many years, and trained in the Merkabah, did some shamanic work on my behalf and came up with the following information:-
"did some exploratorory shamanic work last night re "what was eating you"/what (if anything)being missed. spotted what looked like a gold scareb beetle eating at your neck.
first thought was this may be talisman. told to watch.
it turned into a large horned beetle still gold in colour but not metal. was v much alive and chewing away. more came into view.
NOW despite asking, I was not told whether this was eating at you or eating at the cancer. It felt as if it had been put there deliberately but I don't know whether for good or ill.It is v well masked.
I don't feel that the beetle represents the physical cancer. however what came strongly to mind later is that you may have been hit by some majick malevolently sent to stop you communicating the new teachings. it is Egyptian in origin. if you feel it is malevolent and therefore is not eating the cancer away, the beetle can be skewered via its underbelly. Its important it isn't crushed apparently.
I have done nothing as don't know what energies you and your friends have called in, and don't want to trigger removal of something if its working for your recovery! suggest you get Christine or someone with shamanic/majical ability close to you to check it out. If old majick has been used to cause harm I am not surprised the reiki is not removing it. obviously feel free to ignore but I had to pass info on. also possibly check past life - ? bitten by a stag beetle type creature?"
Although in the 20 years that I have been active spiritually, I have never really immersed myself in the philosophy of the Shamanic Faith, although I do understand it's working, and have memory of past lives where I took this path. I do not feel confident enough to draw on the limited experience I have in shamanic energy in order to be able to tackle this particular problem.
It is, then, that we have contacted our friends and come up with the name of a very experienced shamanic teacher in London, who we contacted four days ago, and is willing to do this work for us. We will attend a clinic in the centre of London tomorrow at 2:30 PM till 4:30 PM where we will try to find the source of the interference that we feel has been causing, or is part of the cause of this problem.
If any of you reading this blog would like to assist by sending your energy, or the energy of spirit as you contact it, we would be eternally grateful.
If you read this blog after the designated time do not worry. If you send your energy, either singly or as a group, and intend that Christine and I receive it at 2:30 PM tomorrow afternoon then that will be the case. Together we are strong.
It could also be that some of you reading this blog will go into a bit of processing about being interfered with. I would like to reassure you that interference coming from what we would consider to be 'dark energy' is just a matter of energetic balance finding itself within our reality. Whenever we, as groups, organise ourselves to bring in the highest energies of light into the planet, that group on the planet which holds dark energy would perceive that as a threat and react accordingly. Such is the dance of the universe.
A lot of you have heard me say this but I always draw the analogy to the Godfather films where, when a person is subjected to negative actions, it is just business not personal. This is also the case in spiritual work.
It is very rare that an individual is singled out for particular attention by those of our brothers in incarnation who are on the left-hand path (Black Magicians). Generally, interference is directed at the group of which you are a part. Just holding the energy of bringing the highest light will cause a reaction from this group and there is nothing to fear about it if you are able to hold your intention, your power, and your space.
It seems in my particular case, I am one of the few where this has been made an exception, and this is probably why Christine and I have found it so difficult over the last three years. However, this is of no import when, as a group, we can come together in consciousness and stand firm against the forces that wish to enslave humanity in the lower three chakras of the personality.
I know we will be successful tomorrow thanks to your efforts, the continued support of spirit, and the inevitable outcome whereby the light will always overcome the dark.
All my love and thanks.
Kevin.
Tomorrow, Christine and I journey down to London to have a consultation with a Shamanic Master Teacher. The reason for this are as follows. As you can probably imagine, over the three years that I have had this illness, I have received many messages of support and guidance from various people, and our friends. Two of our friends, who are very well known as channels and exceptional spiritual teachers are Jennifer Posada and Edward Courtenay. Please see their websites below.
http://www.edwincourtenay.co.uk/
http://www.jenniferposada.com/
These two of our friends, including others of our students, came up with very similar perceptions of me being interfered with by dark forces originating out of the temples of Egypt. It is also a consideration to remember that this cancer first appeared one month after Christine and I moved to the Valley of the Kings in Luxor, Egypt.
Now, as I try to perceive where this energy attached to my left shoulder is coming from, I see a temple in Egypt shrouded in darkness, there is a large group of Egyptian priest stood in front of a large alter. They are stood in the shape of a Chevron. At the head of the Chevron is a baldheaded priest dressed in gold. All of the priests behind him are channelling energy forward so that it is channelled into this particular priest and thence to me. This energy is flowing now even though this group is assembled in this temple 5000 years ago. Since receiving this information I have started the process of reversing this energy, and since doing this have felt the return of strength that I have mentioned in the previous blogs.
When I started to put out the information in this blog about where I am now, a good friend of mine, who I have known for many years, and trained in the Merkabah, did some shamanic work on my behalf and came up with the following information:-
"did some exploratorory shamanic work last night re "what was eating you"/what (if anything)being missed. spotted what looked like a gold scareb beetle eating at your neck.
first thought was this may be talisman. told to watch.
it turned into a large horned beetle still gold in colour but not metal. was v much alive and chewing away. more came into view.
NOW despite asking, I was not told whether this was eating at you or eating at the cancer. It felt as if it had been put there deliberately but I don't know whether for good or ill.It is v well masked.
I don't feel that the beetle represents the physical cancer. however what came strongly to mind later is that you may have been hit by some majick malevolently sent to stop you communicating the new teachings. it is Egyptian in origin. if you feel it is malevolent and therefore is not eating the cancer away, the beetle can be skewered via its underbelly. Its important it isn't crushed apparently.
I have done nothing as don't know what energies you and your friends have called in, and don't want to trigger removal of something if its working for your recovery! suggest you get Christine or someone with shamanic/majical ability close to you to check it out. If old majick has been used to cause harm I am not surprised the reiki is not removing it. obviously feel free to ignore but I had to pass info on. also possibly check past life - ? bitten by a stag beetle type creature?"
Although in the 20 years that I have been active spiritually, I have never really immersed myself in the philosophy of the Shamanic Faith, although I do understand it's working, and have memory of past lives where I took this path. I do not feel confident enough to draw on the limited experience I have in shamanic energy in order to be able to tackle this particular problem.
It is, then, that we have contacted our friends and come up with the name of a very experienced shamanic teacher in London, who we contacted four days ago, and is willing to do this work for us. We will attend a clinic in the centre of London tomorrow at 2:30 PM till 4:30 PM where we will try to find the source of the interference that we feel has been causing, or is part of the cause of this problem.
If any of you reading this blog would like to assist by sending your energy, or the energy of spirit as you contact it, we would be eternally grateful.
If you read this blog after the designated time do not worry. If you send your energy, either singly or as a group, and intend that Christine and I receive it at 2:30 PM tomorrow afternoon then that will be the case. Together we are strong.
It could also be that some of you reading this blog will go into a bit of processing about being interfered with. I would like to reassure you that interference coming from what we would consider to be 'dark energy' is just a matter of energetic balance finding itself within our reality. Whenever we, as groups, organise ourselves to bring in the highest energies of light into the planet, that group on the planet which holds dark energy would perceive that as a threat and react accordingly. Such is the dance of the universe.
A lot of you have heard me say this but I always draw the analogy to the Godfather films where, when a person is subjected to negative actions, it is just business not personal. This is also the case in spiritual work.
It is very rare that an individual is singled out for particular attention by those of our brothers in incarnation who are on the left-hand path (Black Magicians). Generally, interference is directed at the group of which you are a part. Just holding the energy of bringing the highest light will cause a reaction from this group and there is nothing to fear about it if you are able to hold your intention, your power, and your space.
It seems in my particular case, I am one of the few where this has been made an exception, and this is probably why Christine and I have found it so difficult over the last three years. However, this is of no import when, as a group, we can come together in consciousness and stand firm against the forces that wish to enslave humanity in the lower three chakras of the personality.
I know we will be successful tomorrow thanks to your efforts, the continued support of spirit, and the inevitable outcome whereby the light will always overcome the dark.
All my love and thanks.
Kevin.
Distance Healing
Hi all. Since asking for your support last week by sending absent healing, I am very glad to report that I am feeling a hell of a lot better. In fact, I feel stronger over the last two days than I have done over the last two months.
It may cause some of you to ask the question "why didn't he asked for it sooner?". The reason is that around this time last year, one of our students in America organised a mass healing on my behalf. It was around October, and Christine and I were doing a Mind, Body, Spirit fair in Cairo, Egypt. This particular student gathered together some 50 people to send me healing at a specific time on a specific day. I agreed to it because I felt it would be a good thing. However, when the appointed time came, the healing was of such power that it put me into bed for two days, and I nearly left the incarnation. I have been very wary about accepting distant healing since this time. I will say that in hindsight, as Christine and I now look back upon that time, we would have to agree that it was a turning point in this illness which has allowed me gradually to start to walk the path which will ultimately see me resolve it.
As we say in all of our workshops, there are no mistakes.
It may cause some of you to ask the question "why didn't he asked for it sooner?". The reason is that around this time last year, one of our students in America organised a mass healing on my behalf. It was around October, and Christine and I were doing a Mind, Body, Spirit fair in Cairo, Egypt. This particular student gathered together some 50 people to send me healing at a specific time on a specific day. I agreed to it because I felt it would be a good thing. However, when the appointed time came, the healing was of such power that it put me into bed for two days, and I nearly left the incarnation. I have been very wary about accepting distant healing since this time. I will say that in hindsight, as Christine and I now look back upon that time, we would have to agree that it was a turning point in this illness which has allowed me gradually to start to walk the path which will ultimately see me resolve it.
As we say in all of our workshops, there are no mistakes.
I am now of the opinion, having once again felt its power, that we as a group could do immense service on the planet by organising co-ordinated healing sessions for particular people, places, or things at specific appointed times. If any of you reading this blog would like to subscribe to such a group then please let me know in a separate e-mail.
I would like to thank all of you for the healing that you have sent, and would ask you to continue sending it. Never before have Christine and I felt so confident that we will now start to see the end of this illness, and we have a lot of you to thank for that.
Much love.
Kevin.
Cancer Consciousness
I have had a number of e-mails in response to the blog which have had a quality of passing information to me which I have been teaching for the last five years. It feels as though some of you feel that I have descended into the cancer so much that I have forgotten how one creates one's own reality, and that the reason why the cancer is here is because I believe I have it.
Although at the start of this blog, I tried to put forward the reasons why Christine and I had decided to do it, it does feel as though I should reiterate those reasons.
I would like to say that the reason I decided to do the blogger, after much thought, was to try to pass to all of you the issues that arise when you have to contend with an illness like cancer.
All of these major illnesses of which humanity suffers, which have been around for many thousands of years, have attached to them consciousness grids which play out in the consciousness of each person who contracts that disease. So apart from the symptoms and results of the disease, the person who contracts the disease also has to deal with the effects of being connected to the consciousness grids associated with that disease. This is a point that is not often recognised by people in the West, and healers who are helping these people come to terms and treat the disease.
The object of doing the blogger was that, I, as a healer have a foot in both camps. I am going through the process of being connected to the consciousness grid of cancer, and downloading all of the fear, doubt, and worry associated with that consciousness grid, and at the same time I am a spiritual practitioner who has the ability to remain in a neutral place and observe the process. My reason for putting out the blogger was that I hoped I could share the observations that I have been having about all the doubts, fear, and worry that is associated with cancer downloaded from the consciousness grid that I am having to clear on a daily basis. If Healers recognise that this is a quality to all disease of the people they are treating, it is my feeling we will be able, as Angelic Reiki practitioners, to offer help to these people on a level that other Healers cannot do.
I am continually holding the space of knowing that I am a divine being in incarnation, and as a divine being could not possibly embody a disease as we understand it. This is my truth. However, there is obviously another component to the cancer that I have, in the sense that even though I truly embody this consciousness I still have the cancer. It is not enough to take the high spiritual ground and expect to never contract illness as we understand it. One has to take responsibility for having created the illness in the first place, whether that be in this lifetime or another. The frustration which I referred to in the blog is being able to have an internal self-image as the spiritual, divine being that I am, and to still embody illness.
On this plane of reality one has to walk hand-in-hand with the divine and accept the human part of each of us, and be prepared to work through that human part. This is a process that I find myself in at this time. I am truly confident that through the efforts of Christine and myself we will come through this process a lot richer and wiser for it. It is also my feeling that we are very close to doing that, which is another reason why we decided to put out the blog. Over the next 2 to 3 months we feel we will totally transition through this illness and be able to share the process with all of you so that it may enrich your knowledge as it will do ours.
Much love. Kevin.
Although at the start of this blog, I tried to put forward the reasons why Christine and I had decided to do it, it does feel as though I should reiterate those reasons.
I would like to say that the reason I decided to do the blogger, after much thought, was to try to pass to all of you the issues that arise when you have to contend with an illness like cancer.
All of these major illnesses of which humanity suffers, which have been around for many thousands of years, have attached to them consciousness grids which play out in the consciousness of each person who contracts that disease. So apart from the symptoms and results of the disease, the person who contracts the disease also has to deal with the effects of being connected to the consciousness grids associated with that disease. This is a point that is not often recognised by people in the West, and healers who are helping these people come to terms and treat the disease.
The object of doing the blogger was that, I, as a healer have a foot in both camps. I am going through the process of being connected to the consciousness grid of cancer, and downloading all of the fear, doubt, and worry associated with that consciousness grid, and at the same time I am a spiritual practitioner who has the ability to remain in a neutral place and observe the process. My reason for putting out the blogger was that I hoped I could share the observations that I have been having about all the doubts, fear, and worry that is associated with cancer downloaded from the consciousness grid that I am having to clear on a daily basis. If Healers recognise that this is a quality to all disease of the people they are treating, it is my feeling we will be able, as Angelic Reiki practitioners, to offer help to these people on a level that other Healers cannot do.
I am continually holding the space of knowing that I am a divine being in incarnation, and as a divine being could not possibly embody a disease as we understand it. This is my truth. However, there is obviously another component to the cancer that I have, in the sense that even though I truly embody this consciousness I still have the cancer. It is not enough to take the high spiritual ground and expect to never contract illness as we understand it. One has to take responsibility for having created the illness in the first place, whether that be in this lifetime or another. The frustration which I referred to in the blog is being able to have an internal self-image as the spiritual, divine being that I am, and to still embody illness.
On this plane of reality one has to walk hand-in-hand with the divine and accept the human part of each of us, and be prepared to work through that human part. This is a process that I find myself in at this time. I am truly confident that through the efforts of Christine and myself we will come through this process a lot richer and wiser for it. It is also my feeling that we are very close to doing that, which is another reason why we decided to put out the blog. Over the next 2 to 3 months we feel we will totally transition through this illness and be able to share the process with all of you so that it may enrich your knowledge as it will do ours.
Much love. Kevin.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Too Much Pain
Hello again my friends. Yesterday I had a very strange day. I had gotten up at 8 AM in the morning as usual, but as sometimes is the case, I felt extremely tired and decided to go back to bed.
Woke up again at 11 AM, got up as normal, had a shower and shave. On going downstairs for my first beverage of the day, I was three-quarter way through the cup of tea when suddenly I started to go very lightheaded. In just a very short space of time this increased to such a point that I felt as though I was going to pass out. This caused me some concern as I am living by myself in a cottage in West Yorkshire. Also, at the same time I had the most amazingly acute pain in the left hand side of my neck. This pain was so intense I had never experienced anything like it before in this lifetime. It was so bad, that all my muscles were jumping and I could not stop myself from shaking. I thought I had better get some assistance, and so went over to the phone to call 999. By this time, my vision had gone, and I could not see the buttons. I had to put my head between my legs to regain some kind of vision, and then very quickly bob up to make a 999 call. On answering I found it very difficult to speak because I was breathing so rapidly I could not get any words out. Luckily, I managed to get out the address and receive assurances that the ambulance was on the way.
It arrived five minutes later, and the paramedics did a very good job in trying to bring the situation under control. All through this I was in this immense pain that I cannot describe. They tried to get me to slow down my breathing which I managed to do, through the meditation training etc, but it was a challenge. We then proceeded to go to the local emergency department at the hospital, where I ended up waiting for an hour for a doctor to see me. All of the time in the same amount of pain.
Once the doctor had come, he took two hours of administering morphine up to 15 mg before the pain subsided. Apparently, this is a very high dose. I have to say I did enjoy the trip, but not the pain.
As I did not know what was happening, it only felt right to give Christine a quick call to let her know what was going on. Of course, on hearing the news Christine booked the first flight back to England, and within two hours was on a plane. I am happy to say she is with me now.
Apparently, the pain was triggered by a massive drop in blood pressure which is why I could not stand up and kept feeling as though I was going to faint. Nobody knows why the blood pressure dropped like it did. The medical establishment seems to be focused on alleviating what is there, but not really focusing on the cause of the problem, but we all know that. What it has done, however, is mobilise the forces of cancer care. So now I have people coming at me from every direction. MacMillan nurses from one direction, district nurses from another, and palietive care nurses from another. This is great, because Christine has to go back to Mexico in the next week and I have to be by myself once again. It is of some concern that this could happen again while I am by myself, and it is a challenge to be able to get to a phone and call for assistance. I do not know how the nurses etc are going to set up the care programme, but I do know that I will be checked on constantly.
The overall feeling that is coming from the doctors and nurses in the A&E, the MacMillan nurses etc is that I am now on my last legs and they are all expecting me to go on a long journey very soon. Of course, once again, Christine and I do not buy into this and we are still plugging away with the programme of diet and vitamins to sort this out.
As you can imagine, we have received many e-mails of support, and some of those e-mails have supplied us with new insight. One of the e-mails has been particularly helpful, and it has caused Christine and I look for help in a certain direction which we feel will be productive. As we explore this, I will post more information to this blogger.
So what is the lesson? A lesson for me at this moment in time is humility. I did put out a request that I did not require any healing from anybody. When I woke this morning I was a different person. I am the same as anybody else, not an amazing spiritual teacher, but a normal bloke who has a bloody painful cancer. So if anybody out there feels they can help by sending energy or healing then I would be very grateful to accept it.
Much love to you all.
Kevin.
Woke up again at 11 AM, got up as normal, had a shower and shave. On going downstairs for my first beverage of the day, I was three-quarter way through the cup of tea when suddenly I started to go very lightheaded. In just a very short space of time this increased to such a point that I felt as though I was going to pass out. This caused me some concern as I am living by myself in a cottage in West Yorkshire. Also, at the same time I had the most amazingly acute pain in the left hand side of my neck. This pain was so intense I had never experienced anything like it before in this lifetime. It was so bad, that all my muscles were jumping and I could not stop myself from shaking. I thought I had better get some assistance, and so went over to the phone to call 999. By this time, my vision had gone, and I could not see the buttons. I had to put my head between my legs to regain some kind of vision, and then very quickly bob up to make a 999 call. On answering I found it very difficult to speak because I was breathing so rapidly I could not get any words out. Luckily, I managed to get out the address and receive assurances that the ambulance was on the way.
It arrived five minutes later, and the paramedics did a very good job in trying to bring the situation under control. All through this I was in this immense pain that I cannot describe. They tried to get me to slow down my breathing which I managed to do, through the meditation training etc, but it was a challenge. We then proceeded to go to the local emergency department at the hospital, where I ended up waiting for an hour for a doctor to see me. All of the time in the same amount of pain.
Once the doctor had come, he took two hours of administering morphine up to 15 mg before the pain subsided. Apparently, this is a very high dose. I have to say I did enjoy the trip, but not the pain.
As I did not know what was happening, it only felt right to give Christine a quick call to let her know what was going on. Of course, on hearing the news Christine booked the first flight back to England, and within two hours was on a plane. I am happy to say she is with me now.
Apparently, the pain was triggered by a massive drop in blood pressure which is why I could not stand up and kept feeling as though I was going to faint. Nobody knows why the blood pressure dropped like it did. The medical establishment seems to be focused on alleviating what is there, but not really focusing on the cause of the problem, but we all know that. What it has done, however, is mobilise the forces of cancer care. So now I have people coming at me from every direction. MacMillan nurses from one direction, district nurses from another, and palietive care nurses from another. This is great, because Christine has to go back to Mexico in the next week and I have to be by myself once again. It is of some concern that this could happen again while I am by myself, and it is a challenge to be able to get to a phone and call for assistance. I do not know how the nurses etc are going to set up the care programme, but I do know that I will be checked on constantly.
The overall feeling that is coming from the doctors and nurses in the A&E, the MacMillan nurses etc is that I am now on my last legs and they are all expecting me to go on a long journey very soon. Of course, once again, Christine and I do not buy into this and we are still plugging away with the programme of diet and vitamins to sort this out.
As you can imagine, we have received many e-mails of support, and some of those e-mails have supplied us with new insight. One of the e-mails has been particularly helpful, and it has caused Christine and I look for help in a certain direction which we feel will be productive. As we explore this, I will post more information to this blogger.
So what is the lesson? A lesson for me at this moment in time is humility. I did put out a request that I did not require any healing from anybody. When I woke this morning I was a different person. I am the same as anybody else, not an amazing spiritual teacher, but a normal bloke who has a bloody painful cancer. So if anybody out there feels they can help by sending energy or healing then I would be very grateful to accept it.
Much love to you all.
Kevin.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Chimo
Hi all.
It may come as a surprise to some of you, but then to those of you that know me no surprise, in that I am not doing the chemotherapy and radiation therapy after all.
I did turn up at St James is Hospital, Leeds, on Monday as expected. I arrived at 2 PM in the afternoon and waited for four hours until 6 PM when one of the registrars came with the consent form for me to sign.
Apparently, by law in England, she has to go through the list of side effects that can be inherent in the treatment of chemotherapy. This she proceeded to do. The only problem was the fact that she came out with a whole list of side effects that I had not heard of up until this point.
Two weeks prior to me being in St James's, Christine had flown in from South Africa to see the doctor in charge specially so that she could explain to both of us the treatment and the side-effects so that we could make an informed choice. During this meeting, we were told that the chemotherapy that I would be undergoing was a very mild form of the treatment. A lot of the side-effects would not apply to me, like hair loss etc. It was based on this information the Christine and I decided to go ahead with the treatment.
I now found myself with a registrar in front of me detailing side-effects that I had not heard about up until this time. These side-effects were as follows:
Feeling sick and nauseous and being sick. Well we did have this explained to us but were told that it would be very very mild if at all.
Another side-effect is that your kidneys are affected with the possibility that if the effect is severe your kidneys can be permanently damaged, and so during the treatment they have to very closely monitor your water output in case you go down this road. This is one of the side-effects that were not mentioned.
A numbing or tingling of the feet and hands. Again this was not explained to us and the doctor in front of me told me that most people feel this affect up to some level. I asked this doctor particularly how long these side-effects last but she would not say categorically, however, later I found myself being given two sheets with all of the information which said that most of these side effects can last for a few months after the treatment ends. This meant that as I was undergoing the treatment over four months, I would have most of these side-effects in place for nearly 9 months.
The treatment can affect hearing, so that you may develop Tinitus and lose the ability to hear some high-pitched sounds again, for a small number of people this may be permanent.
This treatment also affects your ability to taste food.
This treatment also lowers your resistance to infection by reducing the production of white blood cells in the bone marrow which leaves you prone to infection. This particular doctor really went into this giving me the impression that this was pretty common, and I was told that I would be given a telephone number so that if I developed a cold or a cough I had to instantly ring them and be rushed into the hospital for a session of antibiotics.
You could experience bruising or bleeding like nosebleeds, blood clots rashes or bleeding gums.
In some minor cases anaemia can become part of the symptoms with tiredness and breathlessness.
A lot of appetite. Again, most people go through this particular one.
Also, one of the ones that I was particularly interested in was the fact that this treatment could make you impotent.
All of these symptoms that I have just explained were not explained to Christine and I the first time we met the doctor two weeks ago.
It was, then, that I had to inform this doctor that this was the first time I'd heard of any of these symptoms, and so I was not in place to accept the treatment. I said I would go away and think about it and let them know in one week's time.
On returning back home, I gave Christine a call in California and we talked over the situation. The result of this is the Christine and I have agreed not to do the treatment but to put all of our eggs in one basket and to totally rely on this programme of diet, enzymes, vitamins etc to overcome the cancer.
In the next part of this blogger I will do as I said I would do, which is to detail all of the remedies that you can take to reduce the effects of chemotherapy, which I had with me at the time, but which now I do not need.
And so it is I find myself back at the cottage totally immersing myself in this program and trying to reorientate my way of life and outlook in order to overcome the causes of this illness.
It may come as a surprise to some of you, but then to those of you that know me no surprise, in that I am not doing the chemotherapy and radiation therapy after all.
I did turn up at St James is Hospital, Leeds, on Monday as expected. I arrived at 2 PM in the afternoon and waited for four hours until 6 PM when one of the registrars came with the consent form for me to sign.
Apparently, by law in England, she has to go through the list of side effects that can be inherent in the treatment of chemotherapy. This she proceeded to do. The only problem was the fact that she came out with a whole list of side effects that I had not heard of up until this point.
Two weeks prior to me being in St James's, Christine had flown in from South Africa to see the doctor in charge specially so that she could explain to both of us the treatment and the side-effects so that we could make an informed choice. During this meeting, we were told that the chemotherapy that I would be undergoing was a very mild form of the treatment. A lot of the side-effects would not apply to me, like hair loss etc. It was based on this information the Christine and I decided to go ahead with the treatment.
I now found myself with a registrar in front of me detailing side-effects that I had not heard about up until this time. These side-effects were as follows:
Feeling sick and nauseous and being sick. Well we did have this explained to us but were told that it would be very very mild if at all.
Another side-effect is that your kidneys are affected with the possibility that if the effect is severe your kidneys can be permanently damaged, and so during the treatment they have to very closely monitor your water output in case you go down this road. This is one of the side-effects that were not mentioned.
A numbing or tingling of the feet and hands. Again this was not explained to us and the doctor in front of me told me that most people feel this affect up to some level. I asked this doctor particularly how long these side-effects last but she would not say categorically, however, later I found myself being given two sheets with all of the information which said that most of these side effects can last for a few months after the treatment ends. This meant that as I was undergoing the treatment over four months, I would have most of these side-effects in place for nearly 9 months.
The treatment can affect hearing, so that you may develop Tinitus and lose the ability to hear some high-pitched sounds again, for a small number of people this may be permanent.
This treatment also affects your ability to taste food.
This treatment also lowers your resistance to infection by reducing the production of white blood cells in the bone marrow which leaves you prone to infection. This particular doctor really went into this giving me the impression that this was pretty common, and I was told that I would be given a telephone number so that if I developed a cold or a cough I had to instantly ring them and be rushed into the hospital for a session of antibiotics.
You could experience bruising or bleeding like nosebleeds, blood clots rashes or bleeding gums.
In some minor cases anaemia can become part of the symptoms with tiredness and breathlessness.
A lot of appetite. Again, most people go through this particular one.
Also, one of the ones that I was particularly interested in was the fact that this treatment could make you impotent.
All of these symptoms that I have just explained were not explained to Christine and I the first time we met the doctor two weeks ago.
It was, then, that I had to inform this doctor that this was the first time I'd heard of any of these symptoms, and so I was not in place to accept the treatment. I said I would go away and think about it and let them know in one week's time.
On returning back home, I gave Christine a call in California and we talked over the situation. The result of this is the Christine and I have agreed not to do the treatment but to put all of our eggs in one basket and to totally rely on this programme of diet, enzymes, vitamins etc to overcome the cancer.
In the next part of this blogger I will do as I said I would do, which is to detail all of the remedies that you can take to reduce the effects of chemotherapy, which I had with me at the time, but which now I do not need.
And so it is I find myself back at the cottage totally immersing myself in this program and trying to reorientate my way of life and outlook in order to overcome the causes of this illness.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Chanellings
I thought it would be beneficial for me to include 2 chanellings I did a year ago while I was in South Africa. Some of you will have read them before.
The first is the group consciousness of the tumour in my throat. The second is the group consciousness of my physical body, known as the 'body elemental' or 'body deva'.
Tumour.
We are the sum total of the consciousness which is the tumour in Kevin's mouth.
We are asked at this time to give full account of why we have appeared in this physical body.
As you have intuited and have recognized cells within the human body can be changed by the influx of energies caused by emotion and mental trauma. In some degree this is the case in this particular body. We constitute a mass, a mass consciousness that is derived from a perception by the inhabiting being of something that does not resonate with the overall geometric patterning held as a consciousness by this physical body. For our part, we do not know the cause of this influx of negative energy, all we do is act upon it. It's nature is one of discord and disharmony which causes us to recreate in physical structure the most appropriate to the thoughtform which is held by the incarnated being. However, we can say that the nature of this thoughtform is based on pain, or a perception by the incarnated being of an immutable and unchangeable condition whereby pain is integrated as a part of this physical body. It comes to us from the over lighting intelligence of this body, that this condition has its roots not in the genetic lineage of this body but in the consciousness of the informing and incarnating entity.
To cause the release of this condition, and to allow us to return to our original patterning, a transformation of the original thoughtform must ensue. This can only be brought about by the incarnating entity. We are to some degree guided by the group consciousness of the entire physical body, which has an intelligence which is far above ours. We suggest that if the incarnating entity wishes to get to the root cause of the thoughtform which is causing us to create cause this particular conflagration, then the incarnating entity question the overlighting intelligence of this physical body.
However, we can say that we are feeling the thrill of a change in our cellular structure caused by the closing in of the reasons for our being in this particular state. We encourage the incarnating entity to continue upon the line in which it is now going. We would also say at this time that we feel that we are holding this condition based on an inability to disperse caused by a lack of communication around which centre we are now creating ourselves. Our advice, therefore, is to follow this line. We are fully aware of the nature of the mission of this incarnating entity, and would look forward to serving upon the line in which this entity will now proceed. It is with this communication and this last sentence that we can no longer contribute to the question in hand. We are fully available to serve.
Body Deva.
So it is finally good that we get to talk at last. The time is overdue where you have opened yourself up to communication with the very vehicle which you inhabit. As you have often said in your workshops I am a very advanced being of my evolution. It is not commonly known that when teachers descend into incarnation in a third dimensional physical form, the over lighting intelligence which will constitute that form is advanced as the teacher coming into form. I have evolved for many thousands of years upon your planet, and have served as the vehicle for many teachers, and mystics, and channels of the light. I am a leader of my race. In this particular case our coming together was carefully chosen by those who overlight such things.
We both know that we are going through a momentous time on the planet. The Devic evolution is proceeding as much as the human. We are working in cooperation to bring about the necessary changes which must ensue over the coming years. Many teachers from the spiritual hierarchy are now descending into incarnation, and are choosing very advanced Devic beings in which to inhabit and overlight their physical bodies.
The line on which these teachers descend is one of clearing and reconfiguring old patterning held by certain genetic lineages. Your particular case is no exception. As you know, the Age of Pisces has now passed out but all incarnations on the planet have to follow the line which is presented to them at any one time. The vibration of Pisces was one off the teacher taking unto themselves the suffering of others. It was the transmuting of the pain of the earth unto themselves so that a general clearing through the genetic line of the race could ensue. As the Age of Aquarius is now upon us this mode of working is now dropping away. You have intuited that you, however, are working on the line of the Piscean vibration. Many of your students are also working along this line; indeed, Angelic Reiki at this time is drawing to itself students who are transmuting the pain of humanity by holding this pain unto themselves.
It seems from the personality consciousness in which you view this that this is definitely unfair, however, taken from a wider view, it is the mode of working that has been followed for the last 2000 years. Viewed from the spiritual hierarchy there is no such thing as pain and suffering, only transmutation. In your particular case you chose an incarnation where pain was the vibrating keynote. You chose to take the burden of the pain of all those in which you came in contact, from your direct family, to the people around you. You chose a profession whereby the people within that profession were suffering due to the fact they had the inability to realise their life’s goals and therefore settled for something less. This was the case in both engineering, and teaching. In both these cases the people involved chose the profession as a second choice, because they did not have the intellectual or financial ability to realise their life goal. You immersed yourself in this energy to transmute it and give these people hope by your very vibration. Unfortunately, you have taken their pain into your personality consciousness, and have not allowed your connection to spirit to transmute this pain. It has, therefore, in your life created a situation whereby you have viewed your reality as a painful experience. This has taken its toll on your physical body. Because of your ability to transmute and transform energy you have carried yourself through all of the years up to now virtually unscathed, but your coming together with Christine, and the anguish that you feel from this relationship was too much, and it tipped the balance. You have felt the deep connection to this being and you're pain at not being able to merge with her has caused you to release all of the stored trauma within your cells, that you have been holding at bay all these years. Your inability to tell her what you feel, and to express your love in the deepest way that you can, has caused a buildup around the organ of communication which is the cause of your present consternation.
As part of this incarnation, as with most teachers following this line, the doorway out of incarnation was the means to shed the stored trauma within the physical body and release it as you ascended the planes once again. By your decision to elect to stay here longer than was first planned in your original incarnational patterning you now find yourself surrounded and overwhelmed by the pain of this incarnation. It is true that we will now be together to create another round of teaching on this planet, and to anchor a new wave of energy which is coming in to you and through you to the rest of humanity. As this energy comes through you it also comes through me, and likewise, transforms the Devic Kingdom. At this time we have to address the situation which is causing the condition which is threatening this new life path for both of us.
As the cause of this original condition was that perception and integration of pain at the third dimensional level, you need to work through the human perception of what pain is. You have to let go of your attachment to it. You have to feel what service that pain gave you in this incarnation up to this present time, and you have to make a decision as to whether you wish to carry on with this particular task. As you have felt, the work that you are doing has now moved into a new phase. This new perception and integration of the energies of the spiritual hierarchy should allow you to embody that consciousness and embrace the human concept of pain as the teacher which it truly is. I for my part, will assist as much as I can. You must pass this pain to me as much as transmuting it for yourself. You must allow the elemental and Devic the kingdoms of the earth and the earth itself to take what you perceive to be the pain and anguish and suffering of others unto itself. As in the case of your particular incarnation it is the mission, the duty of the earth to transmute this pain also, and to hold onto this pain and not pass it to the planet is not a service.
Together we hold the matrix of this physical body together. We must work together to overcome the situation, and I will guide you in as much as you consult me when you feel you need to. I constantly impress you with what needs to be done to overcome this situation. You have also felt that the excesses down any one line are exacerbating the situation. It is also a truth that part of the programming of this physical body does carry programmes which need to be transmuted and therefore the shutting down of such programmes is not the answer. As you have already felt, to give up certain practices which have been deemed harmful to the physical body is not always true to case. I would suggest that you continue doing what you feel is right and integrating those chemicals and substances into your body until such time as you have brought balance to the situation. I would also advise at this time that part of this problem is the perception by yourself that certain practices that you are doing are bad. Holding this thoughtform will create an energy around the particular practice and will integrate into this physical body the program of disharmony. As both you and your wife have said anything is possible as long as you enjoy it. It is your ability to carry on doing these practices without feeling the joy of it. It is pointless taking certain substances into your body if at the same time you have a perception that it is bad. This will cause an anchoring within your cellular structure of resistance to this particular substance and therefore the problem ensues. We advised you to re-polarise the reasons why you do certain things in your life, and rather than judge yourself and these things as bad, we suggest that you feel the joy in them, and if you cannot do this then let this practice go.
We are both at the crossroads of a new period together. We both have to put our attention on the current situation in order to alleviate it. By no means has this condition been overcome, but I can say that already the energy is shifting into a more positive phase. Your wife also has a connection with the Devic Kingdom which is on a different line to yourself. We suggest that you should consult her and let her do the balancing she needs to do along this line. We suggest that she calls upon her innate knowledge and connection to the forces of nature who will guide her in the most appropriate way to bring balance to your physical body.
I am particularly glad that we have now made this contact. It has long been overdue. I would also mention that part of our work together is to do exactly what you are doing here. Both of us have been chosen for our particular abilities that allow us to connect to the intelligence both of the spiritual hierarchy and this planet. We are in service to both this planet and the hierarchy and there is information which is much needed on this planet which we can give out if we make ourselves available. I ask you, therefore, to contemplate this so that we may make ourselves available for those forces which wish to connect humanity through our ability to channel the needed information for this momentous time.
This communication is now ended, my name is Receiver of Light.
The first is the group consciousness of the tumour in my throat. The second is the group consciousness of my physical body, known as the 'body elemental' or 'body deva'.
Tumour.
We are the sum total of the consciousness which is the tumour in Kevin's mouth.
We are asked at this time to give full account of why we have appeared in this physical body.
As you have intuited and have recognized cells within the human body can be changed by the influx of energies caused by emotion and mental trauma. In some degree this is the case in this particular body. We constitute a mass, a mass consciousness that is derived from a perception by the inhabiting being of something that does not resonate with the overall geometric patterning held as a consciousness by this physical body. For our part, we do not know the cause of this influx of negative energy, all we do is act upon it. It's nature is one of discord and disharmony which causes us to recreate in physical structure the most appropriate to the thoughtform which is held by the incarnated being. However, we can say that the nature of this thoughtform is based on pain, or a perception by the incarnated being of an immutable and unchangeable condition whereby pain is integrated as a part of this physical body. It comes to us from the over lighting intelligence of this body, that this condition has its roots not in the genetic lineage of this body but in the consciousness of the informing and incarnating entity.
To cause the release of this condition, and to allow us to return to our original patterning, a transformation of the original thoughtform must ensue. This can only be brought about by the incarnating entity. We are to some degree guided by the group consciousness of the entire physical body, which has an intelligence which is far above ours. We suggest that if the incarnating entity wishes to get to the root cause of the thoughtform which is causing us to create cause this particular conflagration, then the incarnating entity question the overlighting intelligence of this physical body.
However, we can say that we are feeling the thrill of a change in our cellular structure caused by the closing in of the reasons for our being in this particular state. We encourage the incarnating entity to continue upon the line in which it is now going. We would also say at this time that we feel that we are holding this condition based on an inability to disperse caused by a lack of communication around which centre we are now creating ourselves. Our advice, therefore, is to follow this line. We are fully aware of the nature of the mission of this incarnating entity, and would look forward to serving upon the line in which this entity will now proceed. It is with this communication and this last sentence that we can no longer contribute to the question in hand. We are fully available to serve.
Body Deva.
So it is finally good that we get to talk at last. The time is overdue where you have opened yourself up to communication with the very vehicle which you inhabit. As you have often said in your workshops I am a very advanced being of my evolution. It is not commonly known that when teachers descend into incarnation in a third dimensional physical form, the over lighting intelligence which will constitute that form is advanced as the teacher coming into form. I have evolved for many thousands of years upon your planet, and have served as the vehicle for many teachers, and mystics, and channels of the light. I am a leader of my race. In this particular case our coming together was carefully chosen by those who overlight such things.
We both know that we are going through a momentous time on the planet. The Devic evolution is proceeding as much as the human. We are working in cooperation to bring about the necessary changes which must ensue over the coming years. Many teachers from the spiritual hierarchy are now descending into incarnation, and are choosing very advanced Devic beings in which to inhabit and overlight their physical bodies.
The line on which these teachers descend is one of clearing and reconfiguring old patterning held by certain genetic lineages. Your particular case is no exception. As you know, the Age of Pisces has now passed out but all incarnations on the planet have to follow the line which is presented to them at any one time. The vibration of Pisces was one off the teacher taking unto themselves the suffering of others. It was the transmuting of the pain of the earth unto themselves so that a general clearing through the genetic line of the race could ensue. As the Age of Aquarius is now upon us this mode of working is now dropping away. You have intuited that you, however, are working on the line of the Piscean vibration. Many of your students are also working along this line; indeed, Angelic Reiki at this time is drawing to itself students who are transmuting the pain of humanity by holding this pain unto themselves.
It seems from the personality consciousness in which you view this that this is definitely unfair, however, taken from a wider view, it is the mode of working that has been followed for the last 2000 years. Viewed from the spiritual hierarchy there is no such thing as pain and suffering, only transmutation. In your particular case you chose an incarnation where pain was the vibrating keynote. You chose to take the burden of the pain of all those in which you came in contact, from your direct family, to the people around you. You chose a profession whereby the people within that profession were suffering due to the fact they had the inability to realise their life’s goals and therefore settled for something less. This was the case in both engineering, and teaching. In both these cases the people involved chose the profession as a second choice, because they did not have the intellectual or financial ability to realise their life goal. You immersed yourself in this energy to transmute it and give these people hope by your very vibration. Unfortunately, you have taken their pain into your personality consciousness, and have not allowed your connection to spirit to transmute this pain. It has, therefore, in your life created a situation whereby you have viewed your reality as a painful experience. This has taken its toll on your physical body. Because of your ability to transmute and transform energy you have carried yourself through all of the years up to now virtually unscathed, but your coming together with Christine, and the anguish that you feel from this relationship was too much, and it tipped the balance. You have felt the deep connection to this being and you're pain at not being able to merge with her has caused you to release all of the stored trauma within your cells, that you have been holding at bay all these years. Your inability to tell her what you feel, and to express your love in the deepest way that you can, has caused a buildup around the organ of communication which is the cause of your present consternation.
As part of this incarnation, as with most teachers following this line, the doorway out of incarnation was the means to shed the stored trauma within the physical body and release it as you ascended the planes once again. By your decision to elect to stay here longer than was first planned in your original incarnational patterning you now find yourself surrounded and overwhelmed by the pain of this incarnation. It is true that we will now be together to create another round of teaching on this planet, and to anchor a new wave of energy which is coming in to you and through you to the rest of humanity. As this energy comes through you it also comes through me, and likewise, transforms the Devic Kingdom. At this time we have to address the situation which is causing the condition which is threatening this new life path for both of us.
As the cause of this original condition was that perception and integration of pain at the third dimensional level, you need to work through the human perception of what pain is. You have to let go of your attachment to it. You have to feel what service that pain gave you in this incarnation up to this present time, and you have to make a decision as to whether you wish to carry on with this particular task. As you have felt, the work that you are doing has now moved into a new phase. This new perception and integration of the energies of the spiritual hierarchy should allow you to embody that consciousness and embrace the human concept of pain as the teacher which it truly is. I for my part, will assist as much as I can. You must pass this pain to me as much as transmuting it for yourself. You must allow the elemental and Devic the kingdoms of the earth and the earth itself to take what you perceive to be the pain and anguish and suffering of others unto itself. As in the case of your particular incarnation it is the mission, the duty of the earth to transmute this pain also, and to hold onto this pain and not pass it to the planet is not a service.
Together we hold the matrix of this physical body together. We must work together to overcome the situation, and I will guide you in as much as you consult me when you feel you need to. I constantly impress you with what needs to be done to overcome this situation. You have also felt that the excesses down any one line are exacerbating the situation. It is also a truth that part of the programming of this physical body does carry programmes which need to be transmuted and therefore the shutting down of such programmes is not the answer. As you have already felt, to give up certain practices which have been deemed harmful to the physical body is not always true to case. I would suggest that you continue doing what you feel is right and integrating those chemicals and substances into your body until such time as you have brought balance to the situation. I would also advise at this time that part of this problem is the perception by yourself that certain practices that you are doing are bad. Holding this thoughtform will create an energy around the particular practice and will integrate into this physical body the program of disharmony. As both you and your wife have said anything is possible as long as you enjoy it. It is your ability to carry on doing these practices without feeling the joy of it. It is pointless taking certain substances into your body if at the same time you have a perception that it is bad. This will cause an anchoring within your cellular structure of resistance to this particular substance and therefore the problem ensues. We advised you to re-polarise the reasons why you do certain things in your life, and rather than judge yourself and these things as bad, we suggest that you feel the joy in them, and if you cannot do this then let this practice go.
We are both at the crossroads of a new period together. We both have to put our attention on the current situation in order to alleviate it. By no means has this condition been overcome, but I can say that already the energy is shifting into a more positive phase. Your wife also has a connection with the Devic Kingdom which is on a different line to yourself. We suggest that you should consult her and let her do the balancing she needs to do along this line. We suggest that she calls upon her innate knowledge and connection to the forces of nature who will guide her in the most appropriate way to bring balance to your physical body.
I am particularly glad that we have now made this contact. It has long been overdue. I would also mention that part of our work together is to do exactly what you are doing here. Both of us have been chosen for our particular abilities that allow us to connect to the intelligence both of the spiritual hierarchy and this planet. We are in service to both this planet and the hierarchy and there is information which is much needed on this planet which we can give out if we make ourselves available. I ask you, therefore, to contemplate this so that we may make ourselves available for those forces which wish to connect humanity through our ability to channel the needed information for this momentous time.
This communication is now ended, my name is Receiver of Light.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Since April of this year, and the conference we did in Luxor, Egypt, I have not been able to teach a full workshop. As you can imagine, this has really pissed me off. One of the things I love doing most in life is being able to share the experience of Spirit with all of the people who come to do our workshops. It has been a real challenge for me to let go of my attachment to doing this. It has also been a great challenge to allow Christine to take my place, and to trust that she can do it as good as I can, which I am happy to say she can. It has brought up for me control issues.
As I write this blogger, Christine is in Canada where she has just finished teaching a 7 Day Angelic Reiki workshop. Tomorrow, Sunday, she flies to California for three weeks to teach a Shamballa Workshop, and to do an Angelic Reiki update. From there, she goes on to Mexico and from there to Sedona, Arizona. I, however, am in Bingley, West Yorkshire, which I can assure you is not as glamorous as the places where Christine is visiting. Also, I have to find the positive side of being in a country where it is continuously autumn.
Before travelling to Canada, Christine did spend two weeks with me here. What we found that arose was that Christine had spent time away previous to these two weeks again, teaching, and during this time this illness got a slightly stronger foothold. What this means is that periodically, like once every 10 days, I find myself being extremely exhausted and having to spend most of the day in bed. Unfortunately, when Christine was here, I went through such a period. She found it particularly distressing because she had not seen me go through it to that extent before. We found that it had the same effect on a relationship that we describe in workshops when one person does spiritual work and the other person doesn't. It causes the situation where one of the people in a relationship cannot commit to that relationship in the same way. The other person, starts processing like mad, because they are doing what they normally do, and are expecting the responses but the responses never come. This was the case when Christine and I got together last time. We both saw it, but that did not stop us from going into it and feeling it.
As I stated at the beginning of this blogger, I am trying to pass on what other people find in the same situation. And as I expand on this, you will see that cancer as an illness takes people out of the game. It isolates people from the normal modes of life and all the relationships that, up until that time, they have been an integral part of. It causes a massive amount of grief in that person and feelings of separation from everybody else.
As these perceptions come up, Christine and I are trying our best to work through them, to recognise how it affects our feelings for each other and our relationship, and try to bring some balance to the situation. Part of me is glad that Christine is not here because then I know she will not be suffering from feeling me suffer. But then again, I am processing because she is not here and I miss her terribly. There is no easy way out.
As I write this blogger, Christine is in Canada where she has just finished teaching a 7 Day Angelic Reiki workshop. Tomorrow, Sunday, she flies to California for three weeks to teach a Shamballa Workshop, and to do an Angelic Reiki update. From there, she goes on to Mexico and from there to Sedona, Arizona. I, however, am in Bingley, West Yorkshire, which I can assure you is not as glamorous as the places where Christine is visiting. Also, I have to find the positive side of being in a country where it is continuously autumn.
Before travelling to Canada, Christine did spend two weeks with me here. What we found that arose was that Christine had spent time away previous to these two weeks again, teaching, and during this time this illness got a slightly stronger foothold. What this means is that periodically, like once every 10 days, I find myself being extremely exhausted and having to spend most of the day in bed. Unfortunately, when Christine was here, I went through such a period. She found it particularly distressing because she had not seen me go through it to that extent before. We found that it had the same effect on a relationship that we describe in workshops when one person does spiritual work and the other person doesn't. It causes the situation where one of the people in a relationship cannot commit to that relationship in the same way. The other person, starts processing like mad, because they are doing what they normally do, and are expecting the responses but the responses never come. This was the case when Christine and I got together last time. We both saw it, but that did not stop us from going into it and feeling it.
As I stated at the beginning of this blogger, I am trying to pass on what other people find in the same situation. And as I expand on this, you will see that cancer as an illness takes people out of the game. It isolates people from the normal modes of life and all the relationships that, up until that time, they have been an integral part of. It causes a massive amount of grief in that person and feelings of separation from everybody else.
As these perceptions come up, Christine and I are trying our best to work through them, to recognise how it affects our feelings for each other and our relationship, and try to bring some balance to the situation. Part of me is glad that Christine is not here because then I know she will not be suffering from feeling me suffer. But then again, I am processing because she is not here and I miss her terribly. There is no easy way out.
Some of you reading this blog will have memories about the blogger I put out when I first found out that I had cancer three years ago. Then, as now, it felt it would be of service to put out the experience I was going through to all of the students that we had taught. The business we are in is healing. It felt that my perceptions about the process of having cancer, going through operations in hospital, and how it affected the lives of Christine myself, would help all of us to understand the process that our patients will go through if they contact the same kind of illness. This reasoning still holds good as I now write this blogger.
Since the operations that I had in Cairo, in the summer of 2006, I have had three lumps appear in my neck, and then through the efforts of the energies of Angelic Reiki disappear. This year, with the conference that we undertook in Luxor, Egypt, the pattern has changed. I do not know what it was about the energies that we brought through at this conference, but what it did was shift the cancer into a very aggressive mode. I have not been able to eat solid food since April of this year. I have been in variable amounts of pain from extreme to annoying. This time last year I was taking 50 mg Tramadol, which is the morphine-based painkiller. Now, I am on three times that dose. I do not care what anybody says, if they take the high ground about using the energies of spirit to cure illness, and decrying the use of conventional treatment, if you are in extreme pain it will change your mind. This has been the case with me. Two months ago, I made the decision to come back to England and see the doctors here. As fate would have it, the doctor I ended up seeing was the same doctor I saw two years ago that only gave me one year to live. He still finds it incomprehensible that I am still around after not doing conventional treatments
Six weeks ago the same doctor took some biopsies from two lumps in my neck, and an ulcer in the back of my throat on the left-hand side. All of the results were positive. After seeing this doctor to get the results, he said the cancer was inoperable because it had invaded so many parts of my tongue, jaw, and throat, that to remove all of these parts would not be feasible. They therefore decided that the best treatment was a very aggressive regime of chemotherapy and radiation therapy. Even the doctors said that this treatment would be very, very hard. They also offered a less aggressive treatment that would not be curative, but would be paliative, which means it will give me more time. After due consideration, Christine and I have chosen this option.
We do not accept, as the doctors do, that this is a fete accomplie. For us, this illness could go tomorrow. For me, it is buying me more time so that I can find out finally what the causes are and clear it. With this particular treatment they are saying it may give me up to 2 more years in the physical. That is two more years where I can focus my attention on it and tried to clear it. And so it is that I find myself going into St James's Hospital, Leeds, on Monday for the first round of chemotherapy that will last for five days. I will then take two weeks off, and then repeat the process for up to 6 times. After all of the chemotherapy has been completed, I will then have to do to five-day sessions of radiation therapy, with a two week break between each one. The whole of this treatment will take me into March of next year.
Since coming to England, and now having access to books and information that is not readily available in Egypt, Christine and I have found a program of natural remedies that we are now instigating as part of doing, and complementing, Angelic Reiki. It is a complete program using vitamins, enzymes, antioxidants, specific kinds of food etc. Later, I will post this program to this blogger so that you can see the programme for yourselves, and it may be that in the future you could save it and copy it to give to your patients if they are experiencing cancer.
It is Christines and my feeling that the reason why Angelic Reiki has not cleared it, but has kept it at bay for the last two years, is that we needed to look at lifestyle. This means that we needed to look at diet, what I have been drinking, the way I have been living life. It involves a complete change of emphasis in thought, outlook, and creating a balanced environment both in my body, and around myself. Again, I will share this with you through this blogger.
Again, I would ask you all that you refrain from sending me any healing. I know this sounds strange, but I am definitely working with specific energies of Spirit to clear this cancer down a certain line. It does feel that if lots of people send me healing from their perceptions of what cancer is, I will be getting a multitude of healing energies that may conflict with what I am trying to do. I would therefore ask all of you to focus your attention on sending me all of the energies of Spirit so that I may use them in the way that I see fit. This would be of the greatest service.
For those of you that are living close to Bradford, which is where I am now staying, I will just mention that I will be leading the Saltaire Meditation Group at specific times between now and Christmas. I cannot commit to every Friday, because of having to go into hospital for the treatment. I did a meditation this Friday, for the first time, and it was very successful. For those of you interested, the next time I will be doing the meditation at the Saltaire Meditation Group will be 17 October at 8 PM. It would be great if those of you that live close by could attend and we can create a group to bring in some powerful energies at a time on the earth where it is desperately needed.
And so my friends, I will share this experience with you over the next 3 to 4 months. Hopefully, as I try to be unconditional and neutral, there may be something in what I perceive that will help you in your work as Healers.
All my love.
Kevin.
Since the operations that I had in Cairo, in the summer of 2006, I have had three lumps appear in my neck, and then through the efforts of the energies of Angelic Reiki disappear. This year, with the conference that we undertook in Luxor, Egypt, the pattern has changed. I do not know what it was about the energies that we brought through at this conference, but what it did was shift the cancer into a very aggressive mode. I have not been able to eat solid food since April of this year. I have been in variable amounts of pain from extreme to annoying. This time last year I was taking 50 mg Tramadol, which is the morphine-based painkiller. Now, I am on three times that dose. I do not care what anybody says, if they take the high ground about using the energies of spirit to cure illness, and decrying the use of conventional treatment, if you are in extreme pain it will change your mind. This has been the case with me. Two months ago, I made the decision to come back to England and see the doctors here. As fate would have it, the doctor I ended up seeing was the same doctor I saw two years ago that only gave me one year to live. He still finds it incomprehensible that I am still around after not doing conventional treatments
Six weeks ago the same doctor took some biopsies from two lumps in my neck, and an ulcer in the back of my throat on the left-hand side. All of the results were positive. After seeing this doctor to get the results, he said the cancer was inoperable because it had invaded so many parts of my tongue, jaw, and throat, that to remove all of these parts would not be feasible. They therefore decided that the best treatment was a very aggressive regime of chemotherapy and radiation therapy. Even the doctors said that this treatment would be very, very hard. They also offered a less aggressive treatment that would not be curative, but would be paliative, which means it will give me more time. After due consideration, Christine and I have chosen this option.
We do not accept, as the doctors do, that this is a fete accomplie. For us, this illness could go tomorrow. For me, it is buying me more time so that I can find out finally what the causes are and clear it. With this particular treatment they are saying it may give me up to 2 more years in the physical. That is two more years where I can focus my attention on it and tried to clear it. And so it is that I find myself going into St James's Hospital, Leeds, on Monday for the first round of chemotherapy that will last for five days. I will then take two weeks off, and then repeat the process for up to 6 times. After all of the chemotherapy has been completed, I will then have to do to five-day sessions of radiation therapy, with a two week break between each one. The whole of this treatment will take me into March of next year.
Since coming to England, and now having access to books and information that is not readily available in Egypt, Christine and I have found a program of natural remedies that we are now instigating as part of doing, and complementing, Angelic Reiki. It is a complete program using vitamins, enzymes, antioxidants, specific kinds of food etc. Later, I will post this program to this blogger so that you can see the programme for yourselves, and it may be that in the future you could save it and copy it to give to your patients if they are experiencing cancer.
It is Christines and my feeling that the reason why Angelic Reiki has not cleared it, but has kept it at bay for the last two years, is that we needed to look at lifestyle. This means that we needed to look at diet, what I have been drinking, the way I have been living life. It involves a complete change of emphasis in thought, outlook, and creating a balanced environment both in my body, and around myself. Again, I will share this with you through this blogger.
Again, I would ask you all that you refrain from sending me any healing. I know this sounds strange, but I am definitely working with specific energies of Spirit to clear this cancer down a certain line. It does feel that if lots of people send me healing from their perceptions of what cancer is, I will be getting a multitude of healing energies that may conflict with what I am trying to do. I would therefore ask all of you to focus your attention on sending me all of the energies of Spirit so that I may use them in the way that I see fit. This would be of the greatest service.
For those of you that are living close to Bradford, which is where I am now staying, I will just mention that I will be leading the Saltaire Meditation Group at specific times between now and Christmas. I cannot commit to every Friday, because of having to go into hospital for the treatment. I did a meditation this Friday, for the first time, and it was very successful. For those of you interested, the next time I will be doing the meditation at the Saltaire Meditation Group will be 17 October at 8 PM. It would be great if those of you that live close by could attend and we can create a group to bring in some powerful energies at a time on the earth where it is desperately needed.
And so my friends, I will share this experience with you over the next 3 to 4 months. Hopefully, as I try to be unconditional and neutral, there may be something in what I perceive that will help you in your work as Healers.
All my love.
Kevin.
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