Health Update

At this moment in time, Christine and I feel that we are at a turning point with Deep River. As detailed in the last blog, I have now completely finished taking morphine but it has taken over 10 days to clear it out of my system. It has been amazing how it has undermined my perception of self, and caused me to drift into a space of accepting the inevitable, which is being conquered by this illness. As the morphine cleared out of my system, so my resolve returned.

At the moment, I am taking a medication called Tramaset, which is a combination of a mild opiate and Paracetamol. I am also taking another medication called Pregabalin, which is used to treat people with epilepsy, but has the quality of reducing nerve pain.
Since writing the last blog I have been completely free of all pain as long as I take these two medications. This is a massive shift in my condition, because only two weeks ago, I was suffering from the most amazingly intense pain on a daily basis.

One of the major contributing factors to my speedy recovery is the fact that I have been consulting a homoeopath as part of the treatment for Deep River. I am absolutely sure that the cessation of the pain has been due entirely to the homoeopathic remedies that I have been prescribed. One of the results of these remedies is that a hole opened up spontaneously in the left-hand side of my neck. If you look at the photograph in this blog you will see the large lump that has formed there. Although the doctors have taken biopsies from this lump and stated it is cancer, I do not believe this to be true. I believe that the original operation two years ago caused the blockage in the lymph system in my neck. This lump is the result of the blockage. With the opening of the hole in my neck, and the constant draining over the last 10 days of excess lymph fluid, I have seen a cessation of the intense pain that I have been experiencing.

It is Christine and my intention that the whole of this journey will be to create a system of healing which will clear cancer on any level. We intend to teach it as part of a two-day course later this year, and also to integrate it into the Seven-Day Angelic Reiki Workshops that we will teach throughout the world this year. It will also be a major part of the Angelic Reiki update that we will be holding in England, also later this year.
As part of the treatment for cancer, we strongly recommend that a classical homoeopath be consulted to support the healing. This is the course that I have walked over the last two months, and I feel that the effect of the homoeopathic remedies is solely contributory to the disappearance of the pain.

We also strongly recommend that anybody who wishes to follow the line of treatment that we indicate, should also seek out an Angelic Reiki Healer, preferably at Master Level, to do a healing at least once a week. Obviously, Christine and I can avail us of this energy at any time, and I cannot stress too strongly how much it supports the healing in this illness.

To give an indication of how the healing can help, on a bad day, which is what I have had today, one of the side effects of having this illness is extreme tiredness and exhaustion. In the course of today I have only been awake for five hours since midnight last night, it now being 8 PM at the time of writing this blog. It has taken me all of my time to move from one place to another without feeling extremely exhausted
Another side-effect, which I have mentioned before, is a shortness of breath. I find this one particularly distressing; as you can feel that you are choking and suffocating at the same time. Although we have the tools to overcome this illness, one can get so immersed in it as we cannot see what needs to be done in any one moment. So it was today. I have been feeling so ill today that I could not focus on what I needed to help me clear this intense tiredness. It was only at Christine's insistence; at 4 PM this afternoon that she felt we should do a healing. This is what we did, for about 15 minutes. I cannot explain how powerfully the energy came in to clear this tiredness. Christine felt that the energy came from master level and energise both of us to an extreme degree. Since the healing, I am now completely energised and raring to go, and ready to tackle anything. We sometimes forget what an amazing gift we have been given.

Christine returns to Luxor on 25 January, and I follow one week later. We feel that this will cause a big shift in the energy around us; that having lived in this cottage for the last six months has been a burning ground for me; a Dark Night of the Soul, where I have died, and been reborn. Once I get in to the sunshine of Luxor, and get energised by it, I feel that my healing will take on new meaning, and I am hopeful that I will start to teach workshops this year. I will reiterate again that this illness has been the most amazing gift, and if I had to go through it again to get the same results I would.
Once again, I would like to thank all of you for your e-mails of support, and I am hoping to reply to them as soon as possible.
Much love to you all.Kevin.

The Twighlight Zone

Hi all.
So, another week passes since I last contributed to this blog.
On reflection, as I write these words, it occurs to me that Kevin Core has not been around for the last two months. The start of the exodus into other realms began with the advent of the intense pain that I started to feel nearly 2 months ago. After having called the emergency services, and finding myself in the emergency room, I was given morphine in order to alleviate the pain. As these periods of pain intensified, and I sought advice from my local health-care professionals, it was decided to prescribe morphine for me on a regular basis. This was first given as a liquid that I took whenever I needed to alleviate intense pain. This later expanded into morphine patches, which resemble patches not unlike the ones that you use to stop smoking. Once applied to the skin, they remain in position for three days and introduced into the body a continuous supply of morphine. I had just got a supply of these patches just before Christmas, and it was when I had these attached to me, that we found it difficult over Christmas, in the sense I could not partake in the festivities.

I do feel to some extent that the spiritual practices that I do, which do have a refining nature on the energy bodies, can leave one susceptible to very dense chemicalisation. It may be that this has left me very susceptible to the side effects of these medications. Whatever the cause, I have found these medications are too much for me. Since writing the last blog, I have had to take the morphine because I still have periods of pain, but once again found it put me in a very difficult space in which I cannot work at all. In fact, for the last week I have been sleeping nearly 16 hours a day. This becaome unbearable when Christine was in tears because she missed me too much. I simply was not here! In order for me to function on any normal level whatsoever I have now had to leave morphine alone completely.

So what does it do?
What I will describe now is how morphine affects me, but I cannot say that it will affect everybody in this way.
As soon as I started to take morphine I realised that it centred my consciousness on the fourth dimensional plane. It totally disconnected me from any reality on the third dimensional plane, that means that I lost touch with all of reality as we experienced it in everyday waking life.
It seemed to trigger in me a spontaneous dream state that ran side-by-side with my everyday waking state. What I found very disconcerting was that I would switch from my everyday waking state, here and now, to the particular dream that I was having on the fourth dimensional plane. This would happen spontaneously and without warning. To say that confusion occurred would be an understatement. One minute I would be talking to Christine about a certain set of circumstances here and then suddenly be relating to Christine an experience I was having in a dream state on the fourth dimensional plane. For Christine, as the Observer, she heard a totally disjointed conversation. As time progressed, I found I was censoring what I would say to Christine before I would say it and check which reality I was commenting on before I opened my mouth.

Another very disconcerting side-effect of morphine is that the conscious mind could not make up its mind whether it was awake or asleep. And so halfway through a conversation with Christine I would suddenly drop my head forward and fall asleep. This could happen any time anywhere. Driving became an issue and I could not get behind the wheel any more. I would sit watching TV at night with Christine, watching a particular programme, and then suddenly snap awake half an hour later without realising that I had fallen asleep at all. This also happened while I was working on the computer. I would be writing something as part of the work that I am doing, and then the next thing I would wake-up 20 minutes later without realising that I had fallen asleep at all.
Other side-effects of the morphine was that it caused spontaneous muscle spasms. I had to be very careful of this one because I would sit on the settee with Christine drinking a cup of coffee, and the next minute my whole body would jump and the coffee would end up flying everywhere including into my lap. This was not good at all as it would shower the whole of the settee we were sitting on, and of course it is not our cottage that we are staying in.
Another side-effect was that I could not sleep at night. It caused me to experience a sense of foreboding. I found it very difficult just to lay in bed and stay in one position for longer than a few minutes without feeling a sense of paranoia creeping in.
Another side-effect was the fact that morphine interferes with the respiratory process, and one can find oneself very short of breath. This really screwed up my meditation in the sense that I do a lot of pranayama which is deep breathing. I found I could no longer do this any more. This of course caused me a lot of consternation as it is through my meditational practice that I define who I am. The taking of morphine totally disempowered me as the person I believe myself to be. I could not meditate, or sleep, and most of the time I found myself drifting into some kind of twilight zone without reference to time or space.

As I have said, the only viable thing that I can now do is to come off the morphine, which I have done for the last five days. I am now coming back into some kind of balance and feel at last like my old self once again. We are also seeing a great improvement in the pain and also the feeling of inflammation in my throat. We attribute this to the various alternative therapies that we have constantly been taking over the last two months, and we believe we are now starting to see some cellular change as a result of this. At the moment of writing this Christine and I are very optimistic that we are on the path of recovery. Once again, I would like to thank all the people who have sent me e-mails over the last couple of weeks, and who have not received a reply. As you can tell from the above I have not been in the space to be able to sit in front of the computer and write any replies to anybody. I am hoping that in the next few days I can remedy this.

As I have written everything above I am not decrying the use of morphine for one minute. I was talking to my GP today and he very rightly pointed out to me that the people who are experiencing intense pain 24/7 morphine give a much-needed respite. What one has to do whenever one is taking allopathic remedies as opposed to alternative remedies is to find the middle ground. Both have their place in the treatment of illness and it is up to us to find that for each of us.
I also write this account of my experiences with morphine so that all of you out there who may have patients who have to resort to morphine can give them advice from a place of informed decision based on what I have said. For those people who live a life of clarity of consciousness morphine will definitely prove to be a difficult path.

Consciousness Grid

For those of you who have read the article that I wrote on death and dying, which I mentioned in an earlier blog, and in which I supplied the link so that you can download the article, I referred to the fact that I have spent a lot of work working with people who are going through the dying process. In the article, I detailed specifically the help I gave to my grandmother, and the process that she went through in her death, and which I had the good grace to help her with.

Also, in this time period, I had the experience of having to come to terms with the death of my mother, and after my grandmother's death, I participated and helped in the death of my stepfather of some years previous. All in all, I felt at this time, I had a good feel for the energy of death and how it affects consciousness. I had mused in the past that if ever I had cancer I would be able to deal with the situation and the effect it would have on me because of these past links. I have to say here and now, that I was completely caught unaware by the power and the energy of contracting cancer and the effect that this had on my consciousness.
I found that with the development of cancer in my mouth I started to log in to the cancer consciousness grid, and from there start to download all of the negative energy contained within the grid.

So what do I mean when I talk about the consciousness grid?
This is a term that has been bandied around quite a lot in the New Age. It refers to a group consciousness. We are all aware that when groups of humans come together in a like mind they create a group consciousness. This is very evident at football matches, and political rallies. When a group of people come together, regardless of the size of the group, and holds a particular focus, that the entire group adheres to and recognises, they create a single entity with many parts. Each part is the individualise consciousness of one of the members of the group. The group consciousness, however, can have its own agenda, and can put forward powerful ideas and doctrines, that, when each member of the group is subjected to these ideas, they find it irresistible to resist adopting these particular ideas and doctrines. Especially in groups of football supporters, it has been shown that people who in their everyday lives are normal and placid, can, when under the influence of the group, behave totally out of character.

In the New-Age, this has become a particularly popular concept. We have all heard of the term "the 100th monkey syndrome". This comes from a study of a particular species of monkey that inhabited a group of islands in the South Seas. It was found that if a group of monkeys on one particular island were taught to retrieve food in a particular way, all of the monkeys on the other islands started to acquire food in that way, without having any physical contact with the original group on the first island. This has come to prove that the only way that the monkeys could have learned the trick, was to be part of a group consciousness that extended beyond the physical and influenced consciousness. The scientist Rupert Sheldrake has done extensive work on this and calls the consciousness grid the Anthropomorphic Field.

If one could see the field of energy, it would look like a sphere of interconnecting lines of energy. This sphere of energy exists around the planet. In fact, wherever groups of human beings come together and create a group thoughtform, they create a sphere of energy around the planet. As you can imagine, the planet is surrounded by millions of such spheres that we are constantly logging in and logging out of everyday.
The sphere of energy which I call the cancer grid is particularly powerful. It contains all of the grief, anger, and fear that has and is being created around the illness of cancer for many thousands of years. When you are diagnosed with cancer, your consciousness merges with this grid and if you are not prepared will download all of the negative energy contained within it.
So it is that when you contract cancer you have two things to deal with. One is the illness itself, and the other is the effects of being connected to this group consciousness of cancer.
As I have mentioned above, even though I had done a lot of work with people who had suffered from cancer, and been around a lot of people who had died from cancer, when I merged with this grid after having been told I had cancer, I was totally unprepared for the massive download of negative energy that overwhelmed me at the time.

It has been shown by pioneers on the subject of death and dying, like Elizabeth Kubler Ross, and Stephen Levine, that when you are confronted with an illness that potentially will end your life, you have to come to terms with a number of emotional energies that potentially could overwhelm you.
The most powerful of these is anger, fear, grief, and depression. They do not come in any order, and you can find yourself adopting anyone at any time, and cycle through them endlessly. Not only do you have to deal with your own fears about dying, and contracting cancer, but you have to come to terms with the fact that you will be connected to the consciousness grid where you are potentially subjected to all of the fear and anger of everybody that has ever had cancer on this planet over thousands of years.
The major way of coming to terms with this and to lessen the effect is to be aware that this grid exists and to make a decision that you do not want, and will not be affected by it. This will dramatically reduce the download of negative energy that can overwhelm you.

It has been recognised in the treatment of cancer that a great part of the treatment is to remain positive and absolutely know that you are going to beat and overcome it. It is extremely important that you remain positive in regard to it. It can mean the difference between life and death.
One of the other results that comes from the existence of this grid is that certain healthcare professionals are also affected by it. Christine and I have found that when we have attended meetings or appointments with certain healthcare officials who are involved in the treatment of my cancer, we have left these meetings feeling depressed and dejected. One of the reasons for this is that these people, when they are talking to you, are projecting onto you their opinion as to the outcome of your illness. If, in their opinion, the outcome is that you will die, this will be projected onto you by these people and certainly have an effect on your consciousness at that time. If this happens, you have to shake yourself after leaving the meeting and reaffirm your commitment to overcoming the illness and sloughing off any negative energy that they may have projected onto you.

It could be interpreted from the above that I am being very hard on all of the people involved. However, none of this would exist if it was taken on board that cancer can be cured by alternative methods other than Allopathic means, and that consciousness grids to do exist that affected us every day of our lives.

To those people reading this, or people who may treat people with cancer I recommend the following. The word ‘cancer’ has such powerful connotations as indicated above, that when you are dealing with the illness yourself, I have found it extremely useful to give the cancer another name other than cancer. To do so diffuses the energy and allows you to still focus on the energy of the illness without being affected by the consciousness grid. The name I have chosen for my particular cancer is Deep River.
In another part of this blog I will explain and detail the communication I have had with this illness which I call Deep River and show by giving cancer another name you can become intimate with the illness to such a degree that there is an extremely good chance that you can overcome it and let it go once and for all.
Much love.

Kevin.

New Direction

Hi All.
Once again, I must apologise for the big gap between postings on this blog site. For the last six weeks Christine and I have been through the most difficult time. It started with me getting up one morning, and halfway through my first cup of coffee, the most intense pain hit me on the left side of my face. Unable to bear it, I resorted to calling the emergency services, and found myself in the emergency room sometime later. Over a period of three hours, I was given several shots of morphine, which eventually brought the pain under control.

Since this time, this pain has re-occurred at various times but in the last four weeks has started to occur at least once every 24 hours. This has made it extremely difficult for Christine and I to live a normal life, because when we are out and this pain starts to come in, I find myself very disabled and unable to function. This can be quite embarrassing if you find yourself in the middle of Asda.
For the last four weeks we have been attempting to find a cause of this pain. I am very happy to say that we have now done that, but I am still experiencing the pain and having to come to terms with it.

The long and the short of it is the fact that the kind of medication that I am taking has adverse side effects, which is the ability to drop your blood pressure. This is what has been happening to me. All of the medication that I am taking at this moment in time are opiate derivatives, this means that they are derived from opium. One of the major side effects of opium is its ability to affect blood pressure. So the scenario is as follows: I start to feel lightheaded, and the pain starts to come down my left hand side. I immediately take morphine, which drops my blood pressure further, causing me more pain, which causes me to take more morphine, which causes my blood pressure to drop even further etc. After 1 to 2 hours of taking morphine every 20 minutes, there comes a time when I am so out of it that the pain just disappears. Unfortunately, the effect of the morphine is so somnambulistic that I cannot function normally.

Christmas was a particularly difficult time. After spending some time in the hospice, of which I will talk later in this blog, we tried various ways of administering painkilling drugs in the effort to find a balance. When I left the hospice, the drugs that I was taking were, a drug that is normally given to control epilepsy but also is very good at controlling nerve pain, and the morphine was given through a patch, very much like a no-smoking patch. I also had a bottle of liquid morphine that I could use as a backup in case the pain became extreme.
What I found was that the morphine patches introduced into my system a continuous flow of morphine, and it was this that I had the problem with. As the morphine integrated itself into my body, I found myself acting as though I had just drank 12 pints of beer, and that is okay if you want to feel drunk all the time. It was not what I wanted to experience at 8 AM on Christmas morning. I was so out of it on Christmas day that I spent most of the time asleep in bed. Of course, Christine found this very difficult because we had arranged to spend Christmas together, and so she found herself having to spend Christmas alone while I was asleep upstairs, hence the difficult time.

The ray of realisation started to come in after I felt intuitively to buy a BP monitor. When I was experiencing one of the episodes of extreme pain, we took a measurement of my blood pressure and found that it was extremely low. Having gone on the Internet to find out the causes of low blood pressure, we found that the medication I was taking was synonymous with this condition. Since discovering this I have now stopped using the morphine patches and only take it in liquid form when I need to.
At the same time as all this was going on, a copy of ‘The Secret’ came into our possession.
It was extremely refreshing to find out that they were saying, and teaching, the same things that Christine and I teach in the workshop ‘The Seven Laws Of Angelic Manifestation and Abundance’.
In The Secret, they focus on one of the laws of abundance which is the Law of Giving and Receiving. If anybody has watched this DVD, they will find that using this one law is very powerful indeed. For Christine and me it was a great gift. It allowed us to see, through our walking the path of conventional medicine, how much we had deviated from our own perception of where we should be in relation to alternative therapies. We had allowed ourselves to integrate consciousness with the allopathic veiw that there is no cure for cancer. We have found ourselves gradually succumbing to this idea, and losing hope as to whether I would ever overcome this condition. I am happy to say that watching The Secret has allowed Christine and myself to see how much we have deviated from our normal perception, and it has allowed us to snap back into where we were. For myself personally, it has allowed me to gather myself mentally and sort this out once and for all.

Where I am now, in relation to my family and the doctors and nurses that are treating me, is that I have a terminal illness, and the inevitable outcome will be that I will probably not see another Christmas. Christine and I feel this projection whenever we are in the space of these people. Watching The Secret has taken us back into where we should be, knowing absolutely that we are the creators of our own reality, and as such can create any future that we desire. Since observing this, Christine and I have undergone a major transformation through Christmas and New Year, and we now find ourselves totally rejuvenated and recharged with spiritual energy in order to recreate our future.

At the moment of writing this blog, I am organising workshops for myself throughout next year. I will be doing a major Angelic Reiki update in England, and the major part of this update will be all of the lessons and techniques that I have learnt to overcome cancer. When I look back at everything that I have gone through, I see there has been a pattern, and that pattern is a full healing system for anybody who has or anybody who knows somebody who has cancer. I am so confident that this will work that I am arranging for these workshops in the future. The fact that I am now designated terminally ill, and the future fact that I will be here to tell the tale, will be proof that what we will teach works.
I intend to put down in written form everything that I am talking about, so that each Angelic Reiki practitioner and teacher will have a proven technique for helping people overcome cancer. My focus for the next 12 months will be to pass this knowledge out to everybody.

The other focus that I will be putting my attention on will be to re-energise the workshop ‘ The Seven Laws of Angelic Manifestation and Abundance’. As I have said, the DVD The Secret just deals with one of these laws, so how much more powerful if we integrate the full Seven Laws of Abundance. It is my desire to share these seven laws with all of you so that from this moment in time we can totally clear this perception that we cannot earn enough money to support ourselves or create our future. I am absolutely sure in my knowledge that these laws work, they cannot fail to do so and I am staking my life on it, and so if you are up to it, we will walk the path together and show people how we can create any reality that we want for ourselves.

As I have to stay in England for the next 12 months, mainly to be able to get the medical support that I need, I will be teaching most of these workshops by myself in England. If any of you are interested in the Angelic Reiki update, or the Manifestation Workshop then please get in touch with me.

And so it is that we now move on and to all intents and purposes create a miracle, where I will walk away from a terminal illness using only my intention. As always, it seems I have done this as an example to all that this energy that we have been given truly works.
I would like to thank all of you who have sent me e-mails of support in the last six weeks, but I have not been able to reply due to the intensity of my medical condition.
Much love.
Kevin.

Where am I?

hello to you all and Merry Christmas.

I have had a number of e-mails concerned that I have not written anything in the blog for the last two weeks. Unfortunately, the difficult time that Christine and I had been experiencing due to the manipulation of my medication has continued during my stay in the hospice.

As I have said before, the medical professionals who are trying to look after me are coming from a place of trying to give me longer periods where I do not experience pain. This has involved giving me medication which is stronger than what I have been taking up to now. I have often been warned by spirit that if I took very dense chemicals it would affect me in a profoundly negative way. This has been the case.

When I first undertook to write this blog I felt that no matter what would happen I would always be in the space to dictate something into the computer that would allow me to pass to you the experience. I have not been prepared for the depth of pain that I have been experiencing, and how that pain disables me in every aspect of normal life. I hope to write more about this later in the blog.

I am hoping that now we are coming into a place of being able to take this medication in such a way so that it does not completely wipe me out in consciousness. I would dearly like to continue working in writing this blog, and writing the articles that I often put forward, and indeed arranging workshops for next year. Although the prognoses by the medical professionals is very bleak, Christine and I do not accept this prognoses, and definitely feel that we will work through this and I shall be teaching again next year.

The first workshop that we intend to teach together since I stopped teaching 12 months ago will be the seven-day Angelic Reiki workshop in Luxor, Egypt, in February of this year. Anybody reading this blog please go to our website and check out the dates. All I can tell you is that being so close to the doorway which leads out of this reality has had a profound effect on my consciousness and the way that I connect to spirit. It is my profound desire to be part of this workshop so that I can be that open doorway for everybody who attends the workshop, and so we can ground some of this most amazing energy that is trying its best to connect to the Earth at this time.

As I have said above, the last seven days have been extremely difficult in that the intense, acute pain has been with me every day for the last seven days. I give my beautiful wife, Christine, much praise and gratitude for preparing the most amazing Christmas dinner today, even though I was laid in bed upstairs pretty disabled and unable to celebrate the occasion. However, as evening approached we were able to have the most perfect Christmas dinner together and celebrate the occasion.

I am hoping that as stability comes in over the next few days, I may dedicate my time to recording all of the things that I wanted to put on the blogger for the last two weeks but have been unable to do so. If you feel drawn to understanding what having cancer is all about, then please look at this blog.

I will try to get out a Christmas message from Christine and myself, and our company which is The Foundation of Cosmic Fire. I cannot promise anything, however, but I am hoping to put this together and send it out to each one of you who have supported us through this difficult time and year.

Christine and I are ever in the space of gratitude for having been able to teach you, know you, and call on you in these difficult times.

Much love to you all.

Kevin.

Preparing the Way

Having spent the last three days in the hospice, here in Bradford, England, it has made me reflect on where I am now in relation to the cancer that I have.

It is interesting to know that when you become a resident in a hospice the entire focus and perception of the staff towards you is about creating the most perfect space for you to go through the dying process. One of the first things I was asked is "If your heart stops, or if you have a heart attack, would you want us to revive you?". It has brought home to me the position that I am in, in regard to the perception of the people who are treating me for the illness that I have which is cancer.
It is worth mentioning here, however, that Christine and myself do not subscribe to this view. Even though, on the face of it, it would appear that we have come to the end of the road in what we can do in order to overcome this cancer, both of us are wise enough to know that the most amazing thing can happen in the next moment. We believe that that will be the case in my case.

Part of the reason I am writing this blog, is to give insight into how you, or your patients, would experience the process of leaving the incarnation. It therefore seems to me, to be of service, if I put myself in that place, which is easy to do here, and to share with you the process I would go through if that is what I believed was true for me now.

For those of you who have read my article on death and dying, or may have looked at other sources where this subject is discussed, you will know that the whole process of dying and what happens to a person when they go through it is known. This knowledge of the path that we walk when we take our last breath has been known for centuries, and is part of what Christine and I call the Ancient Wisdom. This knowledge has been held by the Tibetans more than any other race over the last 10,000 years. Reading the book ' The Tibetan Book of the Dead', or ' The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying' by Sogyal Rinpoche, we'll give you insight into the Tibetan philosophy on this subject.
To reiterate from my article on this subject, in the West there is no preparation done by people approaching death for the process that they will go through and how to prepare for this journey. I liken it to taking a journey in our reality. If you were to take a journey to a new country that you had never visited, you would buy books and maps, source material about the way of life, the climate, the people etc. You would know what kind of clothes to take, what kind of money to use, the kind of food you will eat, the kind of weather you will encounter. Any of us going on such a journey makes these kinds of preparations. Death is the last journey that you will take in the physical body, yet we never read the guide books which shows us how to get through the process. These are the books listed above. It seems to me rather cavalier that we would undertake such an important journey without knowing how to navigate the path or to even give it much thought before the actual event. It seems to me the highest folly to do this when it has such an importance as to the next incarnation you will hold on this planet.

So how do you prepare for death?
As I have said, it is very easy for me to put myself in this place, being where I am now in the hospice. If I believed that if this was the journey I was taking at this moment in time I would do the following:-

Be aware that the last two years of your life in this physical body, and the spiritual work that you ave done while attached to this body, will colour the next incarnation you will take on this planet. This includes the areas of study that you are involved in, the connections to spirit that you have, the groups that you are working with and the people in those groups, and the focus of your spiritual work. I would put a lot of thought into the kind of incarnation I would like to create when I return in a physical body. For the last 12 months I would have been reading and practising the kind of spiritual philosophy that I would like to base my next incarnation on. For me, where I am now, this has been a renewed interest in the Qabala, and magical ritual. I would review the whole of the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime, and I would feel what part of that work has excited me the most and decide if this is what I will follow exclusively in the next incarnation.
I will decide if I want to have a relationship in my next incarnation or to follow spiritual practice totally focused on the work. I will feel and decide if I wish to experience the energy of parenting again and using parenting as a way of grounding my spiritual work.
I would look at abundance issues and see how I have created abundance for myself in this lifetime. If I have found it difficult to create abundance, I will look at how that has influenced me in this incarnation and create a pathway in the next so that I might easily walk the path again without having to do the large amount of work I had to do in this lifetime in order to ground the concept.
I would also look at power issues, how you have to embrace power as part of who you are in order to manifest spiritual energy and ground it in the world and to decide if the use of power would play a significant role in my next incarnation
Also leadership issues, about standing in front of many people and showing people who you are and speaking your truth where others may not want to hear it or agree with it. I would also look at whether I wanted to pass my spiritual knowledge out as a teacher or in writing, and to be a figurehead in the world to ground spiritual concepts and pass them to others.
I would also assess how health could be a focus of doing spiritual work, and whether I would use health as a way of self-realisation as I have in this lifetime. This would also include creating the perfect kind of body that I would desire in the next lifetime, whether that be athletic, or your average kind of body.
I would also consider where I wish to live, whether that be in the East or the West. I would recognise the fact that most of the revolutionary spiritual work that is going to be done over the next 2000 years is going to take place in the West, and I would specifically focus on the country that I wish to be born into.

Whilst constantly visualising and creating this next incarnation, imagining it as perfectly as possible using all of the five senses to make it a reality, I would also focus on clearing all of the ties to this incarnation. This would include:-

I would feel all of the emotional connections to people, places, or things that are around me now and if I feel there are any imbalances I would try my best to bring balance to every situation. I would try to make sure that I will leave this incarnation without a desire to do anything on the third dimensional plane. I would try my best to let go of any attachment to any third dimensional attraction.
I would look at unfinished business, especially with family and friends.
I would look at the spiritual work that I have done in this lifetime and try to pass it over to other people to carry it on when I leave. I would try to make sure that the energy that channelled through me would then pass to the others in perfect harmony. I would also create that I would have a link once I had passed into spirit with these people, to guide and support them from wherever I find myself once I have left the incarnation.

Very importantly, I would start to walk the path of my last breath. This would be to really feel what it would be like to go through the dying process, to take my last breath, and to energetically leave the physical body. Again, I would use all of the five senses to create the sensations and perceptions of this as clearly as I could. This would ensure that I would not have any surprises, and I would be prepared for any eventuality in order to make a smooth transition from this dimension to the next.

I would feel all of the connections to spirit that I have created up to this moment in time. I would connect to all of the beings that I work with now and establish a powerful connection to them so that as I go through this transition, this connection will enable me to find myself on the plane of existence in which they are now. I would affirm my connection to the Spiritual Hierarchy, and again I would feel what it would be like to be in the presence of all of the beings are that I have worked with over the last 20 years in my spiritual work and I would really look forward to seeing them all again.
I would feel the joy of being reunited with all of my friends and family that have gone before me, and all of my brothers and sisters in spirit that have supported me. I would see myself in the most perfect space in spirit as a shining light connecting to all of my students here and passing the wisdom, energy and beauty of spirit to them from where I find myself.

I would see myself in that space now.

Lastly, I would go through all of the meditations that we teach here now that enables us to cut all of the attachments that are no longer necessary in this lifetime. This includes the Michael Kama cutting meditation, one of the most powerful meditations that we teach that allows you to strip away all of the baggage that you no longer need. I would be listening to these meditations now in order to prepare myself for the journey.

It is my recommendation that anybody who is reading these words should contemplate them and remember them, so that when it is your time to let go of this incarnation and to return back to all of our beloved brothers and sisters in spirit, that we walk the most perfect path to do that. That we all end up in the most amazing place gathered together again in brotherhood to create the next level of spirit on earth.

Painful times

Hi All.
Once again I must apologise to all of you who have been tuning into this blog to check out the words of wisdom that are dripping from my mouth as I walk through this journey with cancer.

Unfortunately, the difficult period that I find myself in since I last posted a blog has continued. The problem has been that the medication I am being given is not controlling the pain which I am experiencing through the cancer.
As we go through different combinations of drugs and the timing in taking them, it is causing me to experience different degrees of being well, and not feeling too great. As is always the case with people who have cancer, you have your good days and your bad days. Over the last three weeks I am afraid that the bad days have outweighed the good days.

I am very happy to say, however, that we have come up with the solution of me going into the local Marie Curie hospice next Monday or Tuesday, so that they can monitor the input of the different kinds of drugs they think will help me get through this period of intense pain. I will use this time to focus on this blog, and to go into the feelings that I have experienced through this illness over the last 12 months, and I should have the time to be able to devote myself to writing a comprehensive account of my experiences.

One of the things that is causing the problem, and is worth noting for healers that may come across people who do spiritual work who contract cancer, is that the practices that we do in our meditations can cause shifts in our energy bodies, which when integrated with the density of manufactured chemical remedies, can cause problems.
I myself have practised pranayama for many years which purifies the etheric body, and your Lightbody. The downside to this is that if you intake anything which is of a dense vibration, and that could be food or drink, or in this case medication, it can have an abrasive effect on the subtle body. It is this effect which I am finding difficult at this time as we go through the range of drugs that are available to me to help me get through the pain caused by the cancer.

Because of where the cancer is situated, the pain is associated with the nerves in my mouth and neck which are being aggravated by the cancerous growth. As anybody who has suffered toothache will attest, this pain can be quite intense. It also seems to be triggered without warning, without any kind of outside stimulus, and this is quite disconcerting as it can strike any time, anywhere, without warning.

I am also finding having to go through this quite difficult.
As I have always been a person who resisted taking conventional medicine, I have to swallow humble pie, and give in to the expertise of the professional doctors who are attempting to help me at this time. The medication that they are recommending are medications that are usually used in people who are depressed, or who have epileptic fits. Just this description by itself can make most of us in the holistic health arena wince at the prospect of having to take such aggressive chemicals.
One of the lessons of having cancer, is to let go of one's firm beliefs and judgements, and to accept the space in which I find myself at this time. I must trust the people who I have drawn to myself to help me. And even though these chemicals are not the first thing on the list that I would take, I must trust that in the moment that they are the best that is available at this time.

I am also finding it very difficult, because of not feeling very well at all, actually sitting down at the computer doing any kind of work. I have to be very disciplined to get up and move around day by day. It would be very easy to just go to bed and stay there. I think if I did this, though, it would have long-term detrimental effect on my outlook, and I feel I must keep going in trying to maintain some kind of daily routine. I hope, therefore, to be able to start to post blog on a regular basis.
Much love.
Kevin.